(: OKAY be jealous/envious whatever when i slept totally from 12midnight to 1:15pm the next day, YAY! finally replenish all my sleep that i have sacrifice to the stupid exams :D

about two plus boyfriend fetched me to VIVO(: then the rest took bus & train, while my darling Arund came by the train from her place :D) i so love love love them! anyway we had our lunchhhh at B1 before heading off to the rain at Sentosa.

we played captain ball & volleyball in the RAIN, then it stopped with beautiful sunset and then we continue to keep playingg(: It was super super fun, wait till ARUN update the photos online as the photos are with herrr ahahah (:

YAYNESS to the beautiful day we had at SENTOSA :D:D tomorrow theres another outing with them! IT FAIR/NIKE RUN/SHOPPING (: FUN.

(: LASTPAPER, baby and I will be at the same venue with 424-51= 383 seats in between us at the same time.

HAPPYNEST :D hahaha
2 more papers is DOWN, 2 more to GO (:
Hohoho.
I really have funfun and MORE FUN with the GANG.
WHOOOHOO~ today was 930am and 7pm paper and i love the DANG oopps GANG cos they are so encouraging by talking loudly, laughing and screaming while i try to squeeze info into my heads. LOL(:
I simply heart my baby even more as he seems to be super totful these days, examstress? lol.
i heart lunch & dinner with the DANGANG bcos i get high all the time.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D DION u are always LATE for appts!

studyweek + examweek 2008 is probably the best time i had studying in school(:

look at the environment, the library , the security guards, the PEOPLE who spend everymornings/nights till 9 pm with me to mugg hard for our paper(:

i really had alot of fun, laughter, tears and happiness. and this is like the last examinations i will take in TP(: yay! so me and TPCT (bf,arund,josh,damien,dion,bryan) FUNFUNFUN! i heart you guys.

we already planned my 1 week holiday before i surrender to the working world.. hais.

this saturday will be SENTOSA(: sunday will be NIKERUNPLUS + boylikegirl Concert(:
Monday will be damien'sbday party, aint joining them for the night cycle sorry! , 6th and 7th is DowntownEast (:

4 more damn damn papers to go,
the papers, burn them!!!! Jiayou friends!

(: ppl i mentioned PM ME K , loves!

frm JOSH : 'An award goes to the noisiest people ever to study on the 8th floor so dilligently' =D

Happy 32 months Anniversary Babyboy(:

*slept over the night before after mass studying
over at the school's library till the guard chase us out.

(: had a great sleep , waking up with rain drowning the area and went back to nap even more

*teehee :D:D

we were supposed to GO SCHOOL & study ... however, the rain and everything made us totally sian, where we went over to AMK HUB mac to study and found it too NOISY that we left. Saw Joanne (: in my underdressed state lol * damn paiseh cans. had lunch at S11.

headed to Town around the evening to Suntec, b got his FBT shorts(: and we had
CRYSTAL JADE for dinner once again(: lovesloves the food was totally awesome(: nice mans.

Off we went to Marina which was packed more than NDP people, to catch the firework festival. WHICH WAS TOTALLY OMG(:

baby and I found an area quite tall with a good view of the fireworks :D HAPPYGIRL YES!

20 minutes of Korea Firework and its damn damn beautiful , i heart. Esp when baby holds me, sheltering me from the rain which gets heavier as minute passes.

iloveyousweetheart, you are too lovely.

The value of being able to see and hold someone who you love, without barriers, without difficulty, and they reciprocate...people tend to take it for granted while they have it.

-Josh (:

I love boyfriend!

boyfriend with eyebrow plucking in progress

(: Met Arund this morning before heading to the library, we got drinks&choc

She lent me a VCD: 1 litres of tears, super touching, super nice, i HEART, thanks BABE (:

however due to the environment , with Damien around , i didnt tear, i will go back home and watch it again!

Baby had a paper from 930 to 1130 , and he went to train after that, making me, arund & Damien for LUNCH, in the end Arund didnt got to eat cos she was rushing her project :(:(

haha then around 2+ , Damien and Me walked to MENSA to meet boyfriend and Josh&Dion for LUNCH, super yummy I like! studied after coming back and spend the rest of the day, reading more books :D borrowed frm Josh's Friend :)

everyone except Baby & Bryan was attracted to these down-to-earth books(: so sweet, all about life and how you actually realise that you love that person. Even Damien took 3-5 hrs to read the entire Book(:

Yesyes, soon time PASSED. Arund came back after her class + dinner and then Josh,Baby and me went to find food however all the stalls are CLOSED, so we headed to the CHEERS for
"gay"FOOD = cup noodles :D plus drinks and chocolates.

we headed back to the library and instead of STUDYING, Arund started plucking eyebrows for JOSH & DION and the whole place was like OURS, we started laughing and shouting loudly and take tonnes of photos of DAMIEN. Totally FUNFUNFUN, laughed alot. shall let the photos do the job.

LOVELY MUGGING WEEK :D

this week I mades a few new friends : Arund,Josh,Bryan,Damien &Dion (:
baby's canoe teamates. they are super FUNNY and NICE(:
studying with them was a little productive yet not so productive haha
they oops, WE are a noisy bunch of the school library level 8 :D

ohoh and Arund is totally GOOD at plucking/trimming eyebrows, totally cans.
She did for JINMIN, ME, boyfriend and DAMIEN lol , all the guys want to look pretty but how to compare with my PRETTYBOY(: hehehehe :D:D
shall be her regular from now, she's super nice and skillful cans.
fyi: we did it in the front of the lift of level8 (:

OHWAIT! i totally forget to mention DION & JOSH SAID THAT PS:ILOVEYOU WERE DAMN NICE , as in the book(: yay! i found common lovers of the books and they are guys ! (:

(: next week is daily examinations, well I wish everyone GOODLUCK (: in their papers.


Ohoh 6Sept wildwildwet outing is so going to be fun, Baby is asking his canoe teamates (:
HOPEFULLY it will be ultimate FUN(:

I got something really really very important tomorrow morning(:

Anyway! Totally slacked at B's house today , actually we STUDIED(: and watch mysoju.com (: super niceee, had alot of bread bread bread tuna & egg for lunch and we GYMED.

Oh Im on 3 major projects. Cant wait to finish them off!

HOHOHO. studious studious.
((: Baby and I gonna go to the NATIONALIBRARY to mug for our upcoming examinations.
MUGGERS YES (: i like! I can stay there like for HOURS super comfyy.

Im going to mugmugmug very very hard to really understand every single topic & subject :D
Jiayou all my friends who are taking their examinations; esp my BOYFRIEND,JO&JU dears, Adna, & 3h04(:

WOOT(s) 5 mega PAPERS total frowns, it was since YEAR 1 , we had 5 papers.
Total STRESS and CHIONGGG AH :D

Next week = study week = chiong studies
Next Next week = exams week = chiong exams
Next Next Next week = Holidays = Birthday = I GOT DATES ALREADY(:


4th Sept: Jojo& Juju Dear
5th Sept: Korkor + Mummy
6th Sept: Michie Twinnie + Chum + Boyfriend
7th Sept: Mummy + Boyfriend

10th Sept: Internship start :(

Nuffnang is screening WALL-E on:

23rd August at 12 pm, which is 32nd monthsary, 2332 go buy 4d!!! (:

OMG i just realised that my anniversary date is also 2312(: from year 2005

How sweet will it be to catch a movie with my significant other to celebrate this special moment?

Everyone knows boyfriend and I are ultimate movie-lovers, its a time where we can snuggle up with each other to watch exciting actions, teary scenarios and comical scenes.

Now can how we miss out WALL-E & EVE?!
A science fiction film by PIXAR
which expresses the psyche of the love-starved, trash-compacting robot Wall-E and how he move on with life and not to give up and to make out most of the time he has on this planet.

I really want to find out how EVE comes along in WALL-E's life and what happens, hoping to be able to relate this show to my personal life and relationship[:

PS: We catch a movie at least once a week, the latest movie like 12 Lotus and Journey to the centre of the earth has already been caught! (read my posts for comments on these movies.)

It all started with a early morning wakey wakey, with my mama(: its so nice to sleep together with her at the same time, on the same bed. Feel very safe with my mama/baby around at night

• Breakfast with sweetheart, reached at 8am (:
• He got a meeting in school at 9am then they shift it to tml morning then shift it back by the time they shift back the timing, it was already 9am(: LOL
• Paid the credit bill
• Paid TP Driving Fees $156.70
• To be paid: the phone bill $222.30
• Swim-med :D the sun is so good today! HOTTT!
• Pack the wardrobe , maybe after i have my food + bath i did it halfway
• Wash the clothes(: DONED
• Sweep&Mop the room , omg must I? im damn tired already

I thought alot,
I understood alot,
I made an effort,
Hope someone will notice it soon

O yes I hope I got a hug.

An aimless route,
a whole load of pressure.
Exams is around the corner, 2 weeks time.
Notes, pens, calculator everything almost prepared.

Met up with JOJO today after school, she's so cute can(: loveherloadds
(: She had lunch over at Design, accompany her while waiting for the boy(5hrs.. lor)
then she accompanied me to the lab & chill out with each other until 3+ where she got to go off.

(: FINALLY the boy ended at 445 , i ended school at 12 okay IM VERY PATIENT(:
then we headed off for dinner over at KOVAN Bak Chor Mee + Tau Huay super yummy cans!
(: im a happy happy girl, home sweet home.

Oh yes, I been talking to Ms Zheng about my enrollment with Mudorch Uni
Its been good, probably be taking my Double Major Degree over here.
Its only for a year, each year with 3 sems, each sem 2-3 subjects (: good right
whats more, I get to work full time as well :D:D so its like studying & earn money (:

Meeting Michie Twinnie over at her place for special get together this Friday.
Meeting up Tracy next tuesday for mugging session (she started her Uni alr.)
Going to have a stayover at baby's next week

STUDY STUDY STUDY(:
MOVIE this weekend :D

For the past 19years of my life,
I always yearn perfect moments,
Overwhelmed emotions & thoughts,
led me astray from the right way.

I know I already own most of the best things in life,
like my family & my boyfriends,
at times,I took things for granted
at times, I know but I still pretend I dont know.

Thanks for the people around me that
I love, and love me
accepting me for who I am(:
correcting me from mistakes.

and lastly which is most importantly..

Its okay , do your best the next time.

Love isnt like a reservoir ,
you will never drain it dry.
Its much like a natural spring.
the longer and further it flows,
the stronger and deeper and clearer it becomes.

It was easier to lie,
and hide the hurt,
to smile instead of cry,
and not facing the fact.
My wishes have no home,
i hope to feel better soon.

Michelle Tan Li Ling
written in 8th June 2003
in her diary.

I love him, I love everyone, yes even people whom I hate (thats why its call hate= love what), but they always thought I only knew how to throw tantrums, show my attitude but hey! IM HUMAN TOO. I got feelings, when you are angry with your parents/friends/or significant other, you will definitely flare up somehow , depending on your situation, be it to friends or love ones.


but the ultimate objective is that, bcos you know that that person loves you, cares for you and will forgive you if you flare at them.ITS BECAUSE THEY UNDERSTAND, what you are going through, what is happening, they hope you will feel better too. I have waited all my life, to get what I want, get what I hope for, to see the person so far away from me. I waited, I complained, I cried. even if I have to, I will fight for it, I will give up everything for it. In just of a hope of love & warmth, with achievement.


Those words spoken hurt deeply, ending up at the roadside, being rejected by taxi uncles, in tears running out of tissue. What I said here is not about being pitiful and hurt, I just hope angered words can be random can be truthful, however whats worst is that, no return calls, no turning back, just going ahead.


the agony and pain remains endured while my tears keep on flowing,

everytime I start to do something, I always hope to make someone's burden lighter, to brighten up their day. However, when things goes wrong, nobody understood how much i went through to get it done, then they got angry and it becomes my fault.

at times i wish myself I didnt care, but its because I care and I love thats why I did so much. I wonder if they even realize how hard I work and did so as to achieve the end product / making some sacrifices. I m not complaining, I just trying to justify myself.'

everytime anything happen, Im first to be blamed, accused whatever. If whatever I do to make things better were so easy, then I would not even complain at all. When things went smoothly, everything works, no cockup no problems, people just say thankyou without looking at me, or just walked away.

I have never bother about receiving something in return, even if i just say, its either being practical or im joking. All i just do is to receive a nice hug/thankyou/ saying takecare, really.

I felt that at times, when others accuse/dislike what others said/do, have they really think they have never like this, never a devil always an angel ? when I know someone is unhappy, I try my best to suppress my feelings/opinions hoping that it allow the person to feel better, at times I will give in even when I was unwilling to. (I SWEAR!)

some people thinks to me $$ is wonder, $$ solves alot of problems. If all these works, do I have to work so hard for everything I have done all by myself.

all of us have pride, but when it is stepped down by the one you love , yet not being bothered, is it my fault or just pathetic?

Today, Im being so emotional to type this out , but at least I can feel a short relief from the agony and pain. Tears go away for a while alright...should I let go now?

Mummy's side ah ma/pa, korkor & jie can come to my dream tonight ma? iloveyou. only when you lose the person, you realize that things were not right.

(: im okay, i just need time to UNDERSTAND more, to VISIONALISE things more.. I miss JIEJIE, I miss FEBBY. I feel like crying worst if Im not in school, it hurts too much too much WAY too much.

(: Swimming tonight, friday night and saturday morning/afternoon
(: Tml is my last last presentation, totally heart it AWESOME
(: two more weeks is examinations
(: exactly one month to ma Birthday
(: exactly one month and 3 days to my Internship
(: i heart parents' encouragement, I love my baby boy.

I kinda messaged Eileen the day before if she wanted to go facial with me,
and she did. Supposedly, she went to DPD lecture, but was late for school so she joined
Bf and me at Mensa, before heading to sports hall for pull-ups and TT to make reservations.

Bused down (YES NO CAB, I BUS-ED DOWN) to town
(: Facial at NYSS @ Ngee Ann City with Eileen @ 2pm
erm seriously I kinda hate my consultant, whatever~
freaking painful during extractions cos too long never do ler.

yes after facial was already like 5 plus, so walked around before heading to PS,
down to SK to meet boyfriend to help him with his assignment : telecommunications.

(: went home about 8 plus 9. exhausted.

HOHOHO(: Polyclinics queue are damn damn long ; breakfast at baby's ; DRIVING

Im super pissed off tonight because of some random ACCUSATIONS
to think some people whom I thought had brains to clarify matters before ACCUSING
its okay though, cos Im not totally affected about it, cos some people are peanuts to me.

Talked to some schoolmates, although we are not close they do understood the fact that what I have undergone, feel and they believed in me knowing it wasnt me, cos its not my way of doing things.

To a friend of 3 years: Hey girl! Dont be upset, dont shed a tear for those who do not deserve your tears. Some people dont know how to appreciate friends, its okay(: huggs* Thanks for believing in me too:D This is our last week of *******(ask me!) You must jiayou also okay, we in same boat lah, but must also stand up for yourself k(:

To a stranger:

oh oh stranger you think its you,
dont be afraid to admit its you.
oh oh stranger i totally forget,
you are afraid of being lonely,
you are afraid of being accuse.
oh oh stranger who are you?
who gave you the right,
to criticise others,
who gave you the right,
to accuse others.
oh oh stranger you know what
you always thought that you were right
only you can say others
oh oh stranger, guess what
everything has to do/go your way
but now you know it doesnt
you flare up, aiyoyo..
stranger stranger oh oh stranger
although we are no longer friends,
I wish you good luck,
that you will never get into trouble,
with that character of yours.
oh oh stranger, its time to say goodbye.

(:
Had a SUNLONGJOHNDAY ;
went out with my boyboy to catch THE MUMMY(: super nice ; i like the way where the right feeling , and thrills that were produced during the show, funny&exciting.

after that we actually roam-ed wisma/taka and paragon for his sunglasses and got the one from TAKA which look totally awesome on him(: haha we had our dinner at the CINE 's charsiew & roast pork rice + beef fried rice :D:D happy

we headed down to Bugis to get the strap for his sunglasses for sports(: HomeysweetHomey (:

Michie Twinnie is safe home from BKK ; wheee she bought loads of clothes.

oh i need a facial
next week is study week?

Haha LEADERSHIP is soooo OVER :D my last test today(8 to 9am); abit hard lahs.
anyway cabb-ed down to EXPO for work at NATAS(: was pretty tired to stand there for 9 (11am- 8pm))hours. but thought of the pay, felt alot better.

(: I met all sorts of customer today : weird/rude/super funny/nice people
(: I saw all kinds of packages today
(: I met alot of TP students today LOL

anyway, saw Mich Lim & Kelvin working too(: so we kinda chit chat a little and meet up at around 930pm when we all ended work and meet BABY to have supper together(: we rode to KOVAN - HK CAFE waited for our seats damn long and finally (: FOOD. We kinda crapped, gossip and laughing our heads off.

((: it was 12 midnight when baby send me home, and i hugged him before saying good bye.
what a tiring day!

Yes Im seeing LOVE tml.

"Fights and quarrels occur frequently in our daily lives. It takes two hands to clap and two bickering mouths to start a feud." - David Gan