thank you mummy for that hug last night.
thank you mummy to stay up till 2 am to pat to comfort me to sleep.
thank you mummy for being the best even though sometimes u nag like #*$&%! (its true)
thank you mummy for being there and giving in to me the whole of today
thank you mummy for the shopping therapy : my always wanted swim suit & key pouch
thank you mummy , and I love you.

1. Butterfly Fly Away
2. The Climb
3. You'll Always Find Your Way Back Home
4. Let's Get Crazy
5. Hoedown Throwdown

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs&feature=related
i do not know how to upload the youtube video, pardon me, but this is the link :)

Among these five titles, I chose "The Climb" I really like this song, as it reflects to my situation that Im facing now and it bounds to motivate me to stay strong and have the courage to learn and solve. Inspiring and motivating beat of the music makes it even better.

the lyrics went:
The struggles Im facing, the chances Im taking , sometimes might knock me down but no, Im not breaking.

Closest friends obviously knew what has been happening to me. Looking at previous posts, I have hit High peaks and bottom rock situations and still trying to hang on and stay strong. They are all here to support me through it all, if I give up, I will definitely let them down.

There's always going to be another mountain,Im always gonna make it move, always going to be an uphill battle, somtimes I got to lose, aint about how fast I get there, aint about what's waiting on the other side,its the climb.

As life goes on, there is bound to have another problem to be met one after another, like after my cat had an op which cost me a bomb (im in financial constraint), my grandpa fell so sick making us so worried. Things dont always go the way we want and solving the problem is not easy. After all these problems and hurdle, I learnt more about how to deal and improve and definitely thankful for the precious people who are always there for me.

Now I wished I could get a pair to enjoy this show with someone special, who we recently had a hard time together/

You would like to hear this song and how it relates to the movie? THENU SHOULD
"Catch HANNAH MONTANA: THE MOVIE when it hits Singapore cinemas on 4 JUNE 2009!

:] last night dinner was nice @ Kallang Bahru having the Caifan,
then went over to Sims Drive Blk 44 to do our hair.
can you imagine,

it only cos me FREAKING 30 BUCKS TO DYE & DO TREATMENT and 20 bucks for him
yes dont jealous, she used loreal dye, and some japanese treatment cream.

I DYED MY HAIR (finally)
okay:D I dont know what colour it is,
all you darlings ask me, I cant answer. Hurhur,cos apparently I show Auntie Ivy the colour on the photo, and she agar give me and SHE GOT IT, THE COLOUR I WANT.
she said 高难度 to get my colour done :) tts why also cant confirm the name of colour
BUT ITS NICE.
I HEART IT.

Super worth it can :D teehee.now Im thinking of big wavy curls or straight hair :]
oh well, 10 more kg to go and going to add another 5 more to lose.
in mind is 20kg .
Im going to work DOUBLY hard for June & July & so on of course.
with exams & classes.
--
this month, many things turn from
the highest peak to the bottom pit
trying to pull through it as much as I can,
its tough, its painful and im trying veryvery hard.
feeling a torture with wisdom tooth in my mouth
a torture with tremendous heart beat, or sudden cramps.
worry about my grandpa and my parents.
its not hard but its abit weary & teary
and you know how much I needed u by my side.
--
During this time, I need alot of support and motivation and Im glad they are always there.
I thank those who were there all these times for me,
you know who u are, the only people who understands & cares :) alot.
*hugs* we will meet up soon people.


Love.

today spells love/happy/pain/simple day out

Mummy & I went to a warehouse sale for fossil/dkny/zodiac/adidas
leather goods and accessories. its only for ticket holders, and its crowded!

well, still went over with an empty stomach. I got 2 great buys of Fossil sunglasses.
Mom bought 4 fossil watches and they are pretty :)
yes more watches to wear now , teehee!

after that was to Shifu place.. to heal my ankle.
Thought he was going to like twist turn tt kind, who knows
he took out a small knife for op tt kind.. then ask me to bear with it.
then at each wound, he cut twice which is TOTAL PAIN.
at the 4th cut I started to cry already and mummy was watching.
she came over then keep telling me it will be alright.
Shifu ask me to move my ankle then not so painful like being twisted.
but when I walk, the cuts make my feet pain like #*%&!!

thanks to Shifu, not that painful ler, he cut to get the black blood out of my feet
so that I wont feel pain and discomfort from the injury
timo said it was like an internal bleeding when i fell or sth, and I didnt notice.

so cab down to PS to meet him. Felt really giddy and uncomfortable cos lose abit blood.
Walk abit weird la, then meet da at Aston for lunch:) super hungry ler, got to sit at the alfresco on table no. 23, then caught Night at the Museum 2 , super nice and funny:)
he laughed alot , me too.


I miss your craziness, laughter and sillyness.

So this is a back ward post :) After eating we went over to Gram's house cos its Ah Gong B'day:)

and 41st monthsary:)
the entire family is having dinner , as usual 2 tables, 17 people :D

AH GONG HAPPY BDAY! :)
Although he wont be reading this, I would like to say, he is the best grandpa on earth.
He is a very protective man esp to his grandchildren and children.
Fierce, strict but the man who we always love.
From what I rmb, Grandpa has never ever hit me before neither has he really scold me.
He still gives me pkt money every week
(he will get angry if I dont take, in fact I save all the pkt money he gives me)
Sorry for not being the best grandchild, giving you the utmost love.
Ah gong, because Im the only Tan among all the grandchildren,
for the past 20 years, I will be sitting at Ahgong left/right, and Ah ma the most impt woman to him on the other side. This is how impt I am to him, and how impt he is to me.

Ah Gong, i know you have been staying very strong for your health.
breathless moments makes us very worry,
Please stay strong cos I don want to lose my Grandpa, the one I love and respect most.
Wo ai ni, Mixue.

so while everyone was making alot of noise outside at the living room before the dinner,

I asked ah ma if i could on the aircon and we took a short nap in her room:)
ah ma super nice can , she set the bed for me to sleep. while he uses the massage bed to massage and sleep :)

After training today, went to talk to Coach:)
waited for him to set off to get his visor which is stolen .. yet again.
o well. anyway! lunched @ Ps with chicken pagang and too long never go ler,
they have renovated damn nice and the meal is nice too! :D

after thinking so long, we finally chose this. TEEHEE yummy.

then it was off to grandma house:)
LOVE.

TEEHEE <3
its very very long since I post teehee online.
I cant find my top that I heart.

I realised they do care, just different ways.
I realised he she her him is always there, just I didnt ask.
Im really thankful for those who understands and knows me
and do not judge me by what others say. There people do not even have to know anything but they just lend me a shoulder to lean on, a hug and also lots of encouragement.

Dont tell me if anything happens,just stay strong.
cos it wont happen.
Im weak I admit, but I will try my best:D

Dont act nice to me, when u are talking behind my back
or like making weird faces behind those smses.

Dont ever think you won this race
cos I never gave up once at all
winning doesnt mean anything
losing means I gain much experience
and I will fight better on the next race.

:) it started off with an overnight
i guess it was both stressful and also nice.
stressful is cause the topic about some stuff
nice is cos of the companion, stuff done:]

drink drank drunk

eat eaten ate

play playing played

feel really sweet and nice.
subway for dinner with many many cookies :)
all in all i just want to say sorry for that stress part.
and im really thankful for the patience and sweetness.


happy girl today! thanks to Timothy.
actually Sam too:]
actually Sam kinda ask timo to row with me T2, but I don know how to row properly
then Timo says why not SOT , sit on top kayak.
so we rented using PAssion card :) 7 bucks only hiak hiak.
then we started to row out to the water at reservoir.
and he teach me some technique which i realise i have known quite long ago cos I tried before.

and it got cool and abit weird cos a kayak racer with a Noob like me.
haha the sun was scorching HOTHOTHOT, but we row around and learn more :)
for 1 hr, then Timo turned around facing me on the SOT, ahaha quite stable la the boat.then we started chit chatting , paddling abit. HIAKHIAK, the boat was stable, the paddle damn heavy.

:) thanks TIMO and i think that on the boat chit chat like that with a guy friend like him or a girlfriend will be damn damn shiok and nice , with a cool damn weather. simply love it and i guess will do it again! :D:D cheesy lah, but i think i fell in love with the boat and paddle.

its so hard to be indifferent
its so hard not to care
its so hard to stop caring
its so hard to stop crying
its so hard to do everything now
its so hard not to admit I still love you

its damn hard you know :(

omg i really hate this post.


third post already.

oh man just swimmed finish, lunch finish.

wit josh at library now and he showed me a slide show which totally makes me tear & touched.

And I realize it was just last sept my bday, we were all so united and close :)

and Randall was like the sweetest ever, u shall look at the photos. The patient he had to bake the cake and stuff with my other besties :) so sweet of them. O also the ring made my heart melt.

BEHIND THE SCENES PHOTOS.

A reply to Arund's Post.

Girl you took it the wrong way and I do not mean to hurt,jealous or do anything in a bad way
what for i want the clique if there aint u, u were why I love this clique.
You were the partner of mine when anything happens and stuff.
Maybe I said sth that make u misunderstood but I m going to tell you straight

I DON MEAN TO SAY CLOSER TO THEM, I MEANT TO SAY LIKE I SEE/TALK MORE TO THEM. IN ORDER WORDS, I MISS YOU.

I DON MEAN TO MAKE U JEALOUS AND STUFF COS I DON EVEN HAVE THE INTENTION TO. IN ORDER WORDS, I NEVER MEANT TO HURT U.

I DON KNOW WHY I HAD TO SAY THOSE STUFF AT THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
IN ORDER WORDS, IM SEEKING UR ATTENTION I GUESS.

I LOVE U THE MOST IN THE CLIQUE, AND U ARE THE MOST IMPT AS WELL.
THEN WHY YOU THINK I KEEP TALKING TO U ABT IT,trying so hard .

MAYBE COS IM PISSED WITH SOMEONE.. THAT IS CLOSE TO U.. WHO LIED TO ME..
AND HURT ME WITH HIS WORDS EVEN IF HE SAY WAD IM SORRY IF ITS HARSH...
COS MAYBE I FELT HE TOOK U AWAY FROM ME.

dont forget, this friendship is to last.

look at ur post, are you telling me u too don want this f/s?

I have never said about not having you, so what if u were in another cca.

every time i want to msg u, i type i delete, i send i cancel.

cos I duno where u will be, what u will do.

are you still avoiding ?

you were there when i need you i know and im thankful. cos i know other than him, having u thru this problem will make me feeel safer and stronger.

but every time u left and i sms u its always one or two words.

I said i think i give up,

i hope not to,

but i cant do anything to get together again right?

bkk trip was good

bday celebration was good.

anyway, just rmb once i had you i don wish to lose you bestgf.

but if u really want this , i respect ur decisions.

sry damien josh randall dion that I made arund said those stuff.

I dont mean it but wad can i do ?

ms groggy needs the bed.
and she misses HIM (guess who)

:) i liked today , nice ppl at work.

its the guys' BM today:) wish them the best
haha that Im here to support them:)
namely: Bryan,Josh, Kokwei and Randall


first i am impressed by their lifesaving textbook when I read his one.
second i am super impressed by their practical which i m watching now at school's pool

third i am so so so wanting to learn some new skills :)

oh these 4 guys make me so anxious everytime they go save their casualties man, like damn exciting. haha esp when got timings counted whooo .

& im abit better im serious abt that abit (thanks to those who cares and been there for me.)
i hope today will be better , tml will be better and everything will be better.
i want to go to the movies .


i love my friends, i love him.
will upload the pictures once im home :)

title: 不想错过的爱

在平凡的相遇 我认识了你

这段爱情，我很珍惜
这三年来，许多回忆
叫我放手，我做不到

他们说过，我很幸福
我也说过，真的幸福
但有一天，眼泪掉了
好像说句，伤心难过

我很舍不得你的陪伴
我很想念 你的笑容
走的每条街 都有你的回忆
我恨害怕 没有你的那一天
这是我很 不想错过的爱

爱情的路上我学了好多
爱情的代价到底有多高
爱情的路上和你笑哭闹
是我一身中最珍贵的事

因为我真得很爱你
因为我不想错过这个爱
因为缘分不是天天的
爱才是唯一无价的

Writer: Michelle Tan Li Ling

the above is a song I wrote myself.
COPYRIGHTED:)
word by word is by me alone written.
Enjoy , and I hope someone will be able to give me tune :)
__________________________________________
Im a foolish girl
I sat there with a little hope
All I need is that chance
To hear you say Im yours
I will surrender everything just to be with you
I will cross every ocean just to be with you

i wished i need not have to go thru this feeling.
the level of comfort and happiness above me just collapse onto me

i need more time

and I guess I need a chance.

im crushed.

at least I know, I once love and was loved

as time passes, I still love

the question is am I still loved?

to continue,

today, going to take some grad photos with Josh, Arund, Timo, Janice and him.

with the robe, i know im suppose to take during graduation but Im working on that day.

so will take with them:) these ppl has always been there for me in & out of school.

today is mugging maths day. later still going ah house i think.

Okie bad news. Work schedule is out.

Im working every week day till 930pm.
like moohlahs on one hand , sian on the other.
so it will be isetan tamp/isetan scotts/isetan wisma
and also orchard tangs/vivo tangs
for the next 3 weeks of MAY.

so Im only free in JUNE now. and SERIOUSLY june im not going to work la most probably.
- Tracy Zhang i need stayovers and gf chats at the poolside :]
- Adna Ng pls book at least 2 dates with me in JUNE!!! cos missed ur presence in Apr/May

okay its been a year since i officially work for any other company
outside of my own comfort zone, thats prolly why IM DREADING WORK
and i feel like quitting on my first day but damn it i got to work :(
what makes me happy is.. I get to meet Bf, josh, i think timo and janice for supper at 10pm? lol
making me looking forward for CLOSING rather than just BREAK TIME (1 hr loner meal)
130-230 she is probably trying to intro me the stuff in the environment.
230 leave me to rot till maybe 530/630 to eat dinner 1 hr later back to rot.
see Im so dreading it i can even plan out the time spend. ROT but got kaching can la.

Before reading. Im so freaking excited about MY HOPING OF HK / AUSTRALIA TRIP.
at the dinner table, Auntie Betty and Mummy is planning to go Hongkong this JUNE! :)
which means I DONT THINK I WANT OR NEED TO WORK. lol.
okay maybe i think twice abt hk trip cos i want to save for australia trip:/
hiakhiak roughly a 2 weeks trip can anyone just email me at miixue@gmail.com
about their experience, places to go and the budget and places to stay..
Im on a BUDGET. thank you!
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Happy Mother's Day to all wonderful and proud mothers of children in the world :)

on this lovely day, at midnight i kissed mama and wish her happy mama day:)
before going to sleep.

I bought her a creative 2gb mp3, she always wanted one of her own:)

It rained in the morning, was nice to sleep in.

So bf fetched me later, and off for lunch.
we went to like many places in search of bedframes for him & mp3 for my mum.
so we traveled way too much today, even had no time for movie.
Simlim,OG, Funan, SimLim,Katong, ClarkQuay.

so anyway went over to Novotel hotel for dinner:) with Auntie Better and her niece:)
3 mothers of the dinner table!

3 mothers 3 daughters :)

the men :)

and yes the hotel restaurant so nice to give every mom a carnation:) , fav colour too.
Im not a mom lah so I took mummy's and tadah!! pretty picture.
buy me pink carnations, blue roses for me on my bday and I shall love u max!

all these are my mom's food, I dont feel like eating so much, so I just ate healthy stuff and I already feel so guilty!

I found this at the last walk, cos i guess they ran out of raspberry (its in almost every dessert) which I dont like and so finally they had one of my love strawberries with honeydew fruit tart!

Of course I end my dinner with my usual brewed coffee.
oh I so love brewed coffee, thy brings calm and peace into my heart.
I know flower is a waste of money but I LOVE THEM CAN!!!
so pretty and nice. so sweet and meaningful. aawwww :)

How I wish, Im feeling the same way as Im portraying in this photo.


anyway, HAPPY 19TH WeiJie:)
the team gave him a surprise bday gathering thing while coach punish them with 200 pushups
so yes , made a poster thingy for him and bake chocolates for everyone:) hope everybody enjoys.



so before the celebration, i was studying somewhere in school on a PUBLIC HOLIDAY.

this was Rive Gauche cake which I totally love cakes from this brand:)
it tasted heavenly and nice:) Josh bought tt cake.

this totally reminds me of bf's 21st bday :)

alright, im tired.
btw star trek is good.

Im back to those studying mugging days in O level period rather than in Poly :)

Starting work next week with night classes on mons and weds and then its going to be like mugging mug mug for the next2 years.

sitting outside at LT table, studying my math for my course (bridging)
finally able to hook onto the internet after tries of logging in for damn domain.

yes so here, in a quiet area, with music going away,
network distracting me and me studying for monday's class :(
im kinda peaceful now although im still a little upset.

o wells.
i need someone
my tears just keep falling
i feel like collasping
i dont know whats going on anymore
i feel so crappy
i feel so lost
i dont even know where to start

was it fun you always want?
cos i can say, its hurting in me.

it really felt like a patient being told that she has cancer and can never recover but survive in pain and agony .

I travelled alot these few days. like ALOT, took manymany public transports :

(oh, go ahead and be surprise :D)

okay its been veryvery long since I made an effort to go down for an interview.

so yesterday, after lunch with B i actually bused to tamp interchange

took the trained to orchard then walk to PP.

Office is super artistic and beautiful :) and

so called the "nanny" of all full/part timers, she is super nice and easy going :]

after the interview,

was a call from Arund and an impromptu meetup at Marina.

so to trained to cityhall

which we totally slacked, ate, drink , shopped and feel sick.

pizza hut with drumplets was not tt bad.

was in zara when dad buzzed and said he needs help

ask me to go over office which ultimately the gf understands

and yeah instead of training to AMK (which what Im supposed to), end up cabbing to AMK cos he wants to meet at Jubilee Theatre as me to walk from mrt to there lucky i didnt,

(NOT NEAR OKAY) hehehe. just nice! when I reached I called DADDY,

then he reached within a minute, hopped to his car, off to help him.

WHAT A TIRING TRAVELLING DAY (TTD) , super sleepy and tired.

went home bathed, tv-ed then SLEEP( cough and flu sucks)

:) today!

Swimmed with B, met Janice/Timo/Josh to eat lunchie at design

oh I had malay food, and it tasted good :)

after that was Cabbed to Orchard office to get uniform(teeshirt), roster and guidelines.

then trained back to Tamp interchange, then bused to school again.

now Im waiting for B to end his SIP, so we get to either dinner or Ikea together!

:) love I wont have much weeknights with him cos Im suppose to work on weeknights.

Sunday is Bb and Mummy's Day!

its was a nice nice friday:)
the sun was awesome,
the company (yanling,siewting,junice,lydia,keith,timo & dada) was the nicest company:)
doing freestyle,frog & attempting butterfly was :D nice under the hothotsun.
from 11am to 1230pm:) with a lil tanning sesion which im burnt slightly:)but i like!

after tt was sleeping n studying at the lab:) before heading back to his house
where...ah ma offer me an ku kueh, his sis offers a prawn & his mum offering mcwings:)
super sinful k, but its okay to be DOTED by them with food.
Super!!! when Im supposed to follow my daily meal of veg/fruits/meat/fish.

anyway:) went over to SHIFU's, abit scared ah after he like cut my leg the other time, but this time he massage my whole entire back , cracking all the suan areas, pressing all the right tiring points SUPER SHIOK, wanted to fall asleep. then from the arm to the legs , then the waist. SHIOKSHIOKSHIOK. after me was MUMMY's turn :D

It rained:)

nice weather I like; cooling

in school, after lunch is off to interview

and i think i want to go home

cos i want to nap

a sweet sweet nap :)

TP Library is totally D-U-M-B to think we can believe their explanation of OH the network connection has been down since last night. when some ppl got to use it , and the rest not connected to server. AND WE STILL CAN USE LAPTOP TO ACCESS. so dont lie BLINDLY.

I mean you are a school :) we pay school fees to use everything here, not to listen to some crap when you just dun want to overcrowd the damn library cos its like global threat flu. its so lame and stupid. we all know your staff disconnect the server from the coms, what a stupid answer of :"oh some students are just lucky they got the connected ones" 4 out of all, one word: BULLSHIT.

ytd it was job briefing with jojo dear.

private sale @ isetan 14th May 730am to 10pm *chui *
with 1.5 hrs break;$6.5/hr
:) one day event

oh i wish there is more. tml going for another job interview;

pending thoughts on 11-14th June PC show 2009 job

its like 4 days, i want to shop yet i want to earn those money.

I cant agree more with Jojo that working short term

event job is much more fun, meaningful and meet more people too.

It was all nice lunching with Josh and Bf today, Boyf is happy today, so am I.
Having Josh around always brighten my day,
he's always so intellectual and always entertaining bf's lameness.
went home and took a 2 hr nap before going back to school to run
wait for Baby to finish his land trng, then have dinner with the rest and some new teammates
@angkeong, nice dinner :)

I love you, good night. sleep tight:)

the weekends is good overall,
with loads of up and downs,
with loads of loves and hates.

whatever, Im just glad that its going to be over soon & I can be happier again.

Meeting Jo dear tml for job briefing, just a one day job event :) in town,
window shop and dinner together before I go for my night class 645pm - 10 pm.
:) 2 years starts from now to get my bsc Hons. gotta study and mug real hard now.

o yes tml is swimming time:)

Yes, it is a blast today :)
Both happy & sad.
however only happy things mention here :)

Lunching @ Macperson my fav location for porridge, maccoroni and ngo hiang :)
Nice and cheap food :)
after lunch was off to PS golden village to catch Xmen origins, not bad lah the show.
Easy to understand too.Hiak hiak. can you imagine when we reach there only 1pm and the show all the way to 430pm was selling fast, no choice watch the 450pm show.

So we had 3 hours to spend, off we were to thai massage.
SUPER UBER NICE AND COMFORTABLE AND DAMN GOOD LAH.

SEE HOW HAPPY AND SHU FU WE ARE:)
knots well pressed. very clean and neat. i heart!


they are good, which actually occurs to me .. if i should..u know... :)

Bf and me :) in matching outfits , super niceeeee. omg. i want to do this every month.

after massage was movie then last minute dinner
(he called me during the movie and ask me if wanted to eat crabs not)
with daddy, auntie and ah ma and his workers.
Of course with boyfriend too.

There were my favourite chilli CRABS- e
veryone gave up the claws to me cos I SUPER SUPER LOVE and ONLY eat THEM so loyal:)
HAHA my crave for crabs is finally done! lol with fried meesua, some ee mian, my fav fried tofu, mantou, chicken/pork chop slices :) SUPPER YUMMY, must be ex though.
thanks daddy , i love you super super much.
ok i was busy eating my crab claws like 4 HUGE PIECES super huge :)
that I forget to take photos. well, HECK at least I enjoyed.

After that was zooming to Josh's house to meet up with Arund, Jm to play POKER
yea we addicted to texas poker on facebook that we got to play live:)
it was fun and josh had sparking juice plus foodies for us. well B and I was full or I could have ate the entire Cabury and Jellies.HIAKHIAK. left at 10pm cos B got stuff to do.

HAPPY. cant wait for tml, why cant moolahs drop from sky?