really wants

really needs

really desire

really desperate

really really really

wants to go for a trip.

Hereby dedicate my love to you.

Its been sometime I took time off for myself,
Rollercoaster ride it had been, sweet returns for bumpy rides though.
I met my special other half, who shows me what is true love.
His patience, his endless love is something that couldnt be described.
 
Am glad, that mummy accepts him as my bf
Those who knows my mum, probably knows how much this meant to me.
Mummy & Jiejie , the 2 women I love the most.
Daddy & Boyfriend, the 2 men I love the most.
Soon, it will be time for me to work again, bury myself in the books.

Started today off with a moody feeling, although it was nothing
I felt so #*%Y&($@!! and inferior-ed but got over it after awhile(:
Had a really good and simple lunch with B, to curb the craving of sushi.
Caught 2012, a few thoughts linger though.

To:

Things in life are hard right now &u say I shouldn't worry, cos u are here.

I love the way you make me laugh esp when I am feeling discourag-ed.

Thank you for loving me and showing that you care

I'll love you in return and I'll always be there

When you need me the most, right beside you i'll be

Trust me with your heart and I will never let you down.

I will do what it takes, to add colours to your world.

I enjoy watching over u as u sleep, greatfully acceptin myposition in ur life.

Dedicating my life to u, enduring any obstacles, through all thick&thin.

You who brought me to places I would like to go , cravings I have to eat.

You patiently waited as I allow my soul to open to my emotions.

Your effort to take care of me thru the night, when I was running a fever.

I am amazed at your generosity, your undeniable love&dedication to me.

Thank you my love.

(: goodluck for your exam tomorrow! hugs 加油！; enjoy your 红牛！

Happiness

&vious

Tears

Love

Fear

Lost

.

direction of life;

be my compass, be my navigator.

 to be your queen, to be your love.

-

affected.

Awaiting by the stairway

Had a nice yusheng meal with mama and big ah e(: over at Chinatown! Thanks
bb for sending me home in the evening(:





At the stairway,
Where you and me,
We share this space,
Awaiting for the time,
To return to our love nest,
Yet tonight, apart,
Alone at the stairway




- Posted from my iPhone

 

(: baby says its a TYCO shot, I say its SKILL okay!

love you mama(:

 

hearts supper with babylove(: with YUMMILICIOUSdishes.

You are just like a jigsaw piece, without you,
the picture of my life wouldnt be complete.
Thank you for loving and believing in me (:

&

DONT BULLY ME horrrrr, I hammer you back then you know!

ilessthanthreeyou .

累透了

• 好想飞出国
• 好想吃冰淇
• 好想去海边
• 好想赚钱
• 好想 去滑轮
• 好想吃水果 
• 好想去吃自助餐
• 好想吃日本料理

好想了太多了，
其实这些都不需要，
只想好好地那么爱你（：

Please ease that pain, I cant bear it longer.

The Lil Tug`
destructive person, I was and I can be 

waves of dejection, took a hold over me.

overwhelming me

eating me inside out

killing me softly

 I m glad there is him , always here , always.

His touch , his kiss gave me everything I need 

be it security , be it love.

I always feel so breathless when these thoughts keep spinning in my head.

Yet in the most unexplainable way, he is able to lift them off my mind.

make me feel at ease, let me be who I am, and face myself.

His hugs are always the best medicine to any situation,

His evil grin, his silly actions always make my heart melt.

How can I not treasure him who gave me love, hope and happiness?

To the world, he might not be the best of the best.

To me, he is the best, a heart of gold.

He, whose standard face I love.<3


Dearest has fallen ill, so have I 
yet he make all efforts to make sure I'm alright
As long as I'm happy, he will give all he can.
He felt all the agony yet he didnt complain
still bringing me to see the doctor, being there thru the consultation and all
which I guess, I would be so lost, if he had not been there, seriously.
bringing me to where I wanted to eat after to make me feel better.
and I made him upset cos of that  toyHAMMER *^(_#_$!@!!
haha sorry love, did not mean to!

Timetoeaturmedicine.

I have no idea why Im feeling this way,

It just hit me that maybe.. just maybe.

Not gonna be the same again.

IM HUNGRY!!!! :D the real world is so UGLY.

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you...
Made a mistake
When I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me (Just how good you were to me)

You confessed your love (you confessed your love)
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free...
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame...yeah...

I lie awake
I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy
Thinking of you...
Made a mistake
Let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do (wanting you the way that I do)

Why...didn't I know it

How much I loved you baby?
Why couldn't I show it
If I had only told you
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance... 

updated*

 

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

 

 Valentines day isnt all about being a couple, its about you,me, family and friends

A happy occassion, a time to remember and appreciate people around us.

Incidents been happening,

thoughts really running,
At times, sitting alone or

being in a the midst of crowds,

tears brimmed yet cant shed.

but unlike others, Im lucky, very lucky indeed.

to have this guy,my boyfriend to be there for me thru it all.

He changed my life ,
he filled my memories with colours and smiles. 

He is the only one, who is able to bring me
to look forward to things we do together.

He taught me simple measures of to how to handle emotions and life calmly.

He is always being there, as long as I wish to say,
he is willing to listen,giving advices,returning my smiles to me.

He is always there for me, never was it a 'I' solve the problem,
it is "WE" solve it together.

He taught me to face everything bravely, and
assures me that I can always depend on him.

All I have to do is embrace and trust.

 

Your simple actions, little jokes, your irresistable laughter, 

brought much colours into my life(: loveyou babyboy

Due to a very bad toothache on First day of CNY / Valentine's Day

, did'nt do much visiting and stayed home to sleep pretty much more.

Bb love know I couldnt bite or chew, so I awoke to a pot of love.

Porridge with Scallops(: thank you dearest. you are so s-w-e-e-t!

his simple actions, his sincerity, his love, his care

Aloysious Teoh, that is.

the best Xmas ( when we started talking after dont know how many years)

best New Year ( when we got together) 

best Valentines (when everyday feels like it is )

PRESENT EVER. 

To my dearest  Aloysius Teoh and  Stephanie Chiang:

Thanks for being there when I needed a
shoulder to lean on, for listening patiently to me 

to all problems of mine.

I'm really glad that I have the both of you in my life.

lifeisgonnachangeinaweek.

LOVE IS YOU.

HAPPYCHINESENEWYEAR
HAPPYVALENTINES'DAY(:

At the strike of 12md, beautiful fireworks on display over at esplanade,
Bb and I happen to be there viewing, the spectacular sparks (:
I hope he love his presents(:

A picture speaks a thousand words; how true.
and I wished I can be standing at Keppel Bay, in your arms now.
Moments in one's life, captured with the small device
Pictures taken doesnt literately speaks, but I know mine spells HAPPINESS
<3

Unlike usual r/s, e honeymoon period begins and lasts for tt period of time
Bumpy rides through the beginning journey of our fairytale love,
led us to build a stronger foundation for both of us and
a further confirmation about our future together.

My happiest chapter of my life, the one and only time I truly felt love
Loving someone may be easier, but to carry out your
love from the bottom of your heart, takes  courage and loads of trust.
He brought out a new beginning in me, open doors of my fears, to face them bravely.

2 distinct histories, 2 distant strangers
Who has no link connection except for a msn email add  an fb acct,
Brought together like a melded fabric, tightly woven and inseparable.
The love connection, keeps growing and
The science of unqualified love is presented to me
With endless blossoms, to give and accept one another wholeheartedly.

Through little bickerings, tiny jealousy, major teasings
From your hugs to kisses, with your every little touch,
I appreciate, treasure and I know I need them all,
Towards a better us, a happier us, for our fairytale to come true.

''I wouldn't change one second of our life together.''

and yes you were right baby,


WE ARE A PAIR OF HAPPY COUPLE with all simple needs(:
Give us a pair of movie tickets, food and a bike to travel home, its sufficient.
Cos' his presence is already more than enough and I dont need to ask for more.

somehow I am hoping

somehow Im in fear

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learn.

And many a failure turns about
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when you're at bottom pit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I dont know how to express the feelings and the pain in me,
its so jumbled up and torturing every split minute.
But instead of lying on the bed, just to sleep,
I embraced the pain, bearing the tears back
and do whatever I felt like doing.

All the pain came after I seen the doctor,
the rush of blood and fear, rises in me,
my hands felt cold, but I was lucky, I had dearest with me.

The one who held me tight, hold me close, encouraging me to stay strong
every single time I felt like blacking out.

At times, I got up, walked a few paces here and there,
Not knowing where I was going &what the hell I was doing either,
Weird but it made me felt better.

When I see his wounds, I felt so helpless,
I know his pain wasnt any much lesser than mine at all.

Those open wounds, as we sat together and do some re-dressing.

With those wounds, cuts, burnts and bumps, seeing me running a fever on and off,he set off to the kitchen, to cook soup
(leanmeat,potato,carrot,mushroom,egg inside) which totally tasted awesome and I had more than 2 bowls of them. He even whipped up pasta with sauce (: not forgetting our potato cutlet too.

and this is what I said:" Dear, I dont mind having these for the rest of my life" Yes, more than HAPPY(:
pls pain, pls go away. pls.

ps: I appreciate every kiss you give, every single effort you made, every dishes you cooked. I love you. 



Special thanks to : Steph, Tracy,Chum,Mich Lim and Kelvin (:

Nothing went into my head,
only images of US for the past whole month,
keep flashing thru' my mind.
All I had in mind, was you and only you.
All i wanted was to hold you.

Friends who were there when I called and needed your help.
THANK YOU, really. I appreciate and am really very grateful.
I owe you guys one.

Dearest,
Get well soon!

I love you v much

Life is the sum of experiences that we encounter as go through life.

Day to day to struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world's creatures.

Every decision that we make leads us down another road. 

Every decision the we make has significance.

The tiniest choice that is made reverberates throughout the entire universe.

Dedicated to Special Someone:

When I first met you, the feeling was this is the man,
We talked thru nights, you listened to me, just like how I listened to you.
Who would have thought ,we would become more than just friends.
Till that very night we met, the first time we held hands, the moment we hug & kissed.

Over a period of time, I got to know the real you.
A man so caring and gentle,with a heart so true and simple.

I told you I'd never leave ,because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you ,like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder,what I'd do if you were gone?

So I have decided ,time answers all.
If it is meant to be ,time will remove the doors.
I love the way we are together, you can always make me smile.

Will it ever really be forever? Time will reveal, what lies ahead
but always remember, what I have said/typed right here,
cos I mean it from the bottom of my heart :

Meeting you has changed my life and I really love you so,

These feelings I feel for you ,I am never letting go.

Every moment we spent together, the things that we shared and learned

Is a permanent growth that we've earned being together.

The changes I see and what I have learned about myself and you,

are a response to how we affected lives of our own,

and what we discover in each others eyes.

 
I love you. My tender loving caring boyfriend(:

 

cos its you, mummy the greatest love of all (:

Congratulations on your 32nd year of serving the Singapore Police Force Mummy(:

Iloveyousoubermuch.

Orchard Hotel's ladies has really pretty dressing table lamps.

Thank you Dearest (: much love.

 

(: he simply got a way to put that smile back & take my pain away for a moment.

in pain cos I got stung by 2 bees, knee hurting :(

hopefully it heals tml.

Sorry b to make u so worry :(

thank you for the famous amos no nut choc chip too[:

HAHA, someone said my ah lian pattern come out already(: watch it and learn it well.
Im so in love ; smackmuacks<3

Signing off,

 

---

The beginning of chaos has yet to start, I bet someone cant wait for it.
You think you say stop or closed , will really stop /closed?
You want to start you start, end you end, who the hell you think you are?
sheesh. The entire thing just shows how 不甘愿 you are/were.

you only say forever when you really mean forever.

so what if some forevers dont really last forever,

at least at the moment when I say it,I meant it,

 I live it up to the best and never have any regrets.

come follow me say:

I LOVE  MY FAMILY FOREVER

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS FOREVER

I LOVE MY BROTHERS FOREVER

I LOVE ALOYSIUS TEOH FOREVER

HAHA fyi: Stjames do not ban people for fighting, but I can get you ban still, you want it?

and not that I want to "stick my leg in" but he is my boy like you said, and

my friends know how partial I am, be it Bf, gfs or acquaintance, still fair.

I  remained neutral all along till someone cross the limits.

-
shut up and let it go!

As my promise goes, Im going thru all with you, till the sun no longer shines, the moon loses its glow.

(: I will be there, as long as you need me, love,

 just like how you been there for me, thru' it  all.

 those moments. we spent after, meant alot to both of us. 

130am in the morning; Dearest cooked for his precious

Im thankful for you too love!

Tsk, nice printing you got there Baby!

Happy Monthsary(:

To the LOVE, who treats sleep like god,

thank you for sacrificing so much of your sleep for me.

so am I like god? hahaha

KIDDING la, I know what you going to say me already! */grr*

:D the endless laughter and tickles before you sleep,

tsktsk guess you gotta suffer that for a long time(:

and I know you dont mind, cos you're LOVIN'IT!

Just like how I simply love you de-tangling my hair,

and do all that you can, just to make me smile again.

Dearest, those doors need more than a stopper,

they need your heart to embrace them,

 not for now, not temporary but forever.

endless"iloveyou"s

you're my one and only, Mr. Irreplaceable Love <3

I cant wait for our cooking session (:

--NOTE--

1. Be glad, that thumb of yours is not twisted/broken yet.

2. Please know who you are messing with.

3.You might not want to point tt finger the next time round,

cos' you TOTALLY do not have a reason to do that to me ;AT ALL.

tsktsk for now, good luck (: period.