I guess its because I experience alot more than any other 19 year old girl.
Its not about how much things I had, I bought, I want and I got.
Its more about emotions, family problems, conflicts, friendship, work & school
after almost 20 years, I learnt alot psychologically, emotionally and mentally.
its all about knowing when u talk, who to talk to.
its all about when how -THE TIME too.
I have met 4 most wonderful person who played a huge part of my life. 2 blood related, 2 not.
- Mummy
- Daddy
- Jiejie ( my maid of 16 years)
- Randall
They all have flaws but me too. for 1&2 definitely accepts me for who i am, cos Im their daughter.
If you known me more than 4 years, you will have known about her.
The one who groomed me and take care of me spending every of my free time with her.
Like wad they say , you see her, u see me. Be it the school, shopping, meals, tuitions & parties. Name it. She is like my real sister until now even.
She went back home 3 years ago, I teared like nobody business, imagine a 16 years relationship built up between a stranger and me, of different nationality of different race, but cared and loved me like her own sister/daughter. The endless love I receive, all my first times. Yes she made the difference in me. Telling me to forgive for those who are wrong, to be patient to those who are irritating, control the feelings. The feelings is yours, be really careful of what choice to be made because the consequences is me who bears it all.
Randall, I also knew him as a stranger. Prolly fate, maybe destiny brought us to meet together. The Bond we built within days weeks months years was something I have never felt before with anyone else. I got alot stronger and independent was part of his big impact on me. there was a saying :"Love is blind, when you love, you usually go out of control" yes its true and I know the reasons why. We have a LOVESTORY, and I dont wish it to end, the details of this story, deep down in our hearts we know it means alot. But on the surface, we just thought, its another day together.
Impt people might not stay with you forever, but they have sufficient impacts and memories to last in ur heart , ur mind and ur memory. I dont wish to let go of those I can keep by my side, but is it time to do so?
those who i didnt mention, doesnt mean you are not impt. I will write up a post on you soon enough.