tell me why aint I in the mood to say anything.
tell me why should i even be bothered with people who dont care.
i think jealousy gets over me.
i really hate the feeling of being abandon
i really hate the feeling of know that I will lose the person I treasure most but yet I pretend on.
i really hate the feeling of knowing im nobody but yet i made an extra effort to care and love.
i really hate me being me sometimes, because sometimes i don know what im doing.

i miss your sprining hugs from the back, giving me a peck saying hello bestie! wad you doing?
i miss your bigbig hug when i entered your gatedoor every morning at 8am now
i miss those nights we stayed up till 9pm at the library to rot & bring all our laptop to slack
i miss the time u said:"from today onwards, we will be best friends okay?"
i miss those times when the moment i dropped a tear, you rushed to my side and wipe them off
i miss almost every morning for that week, the msg-ed :"in sch alr, want go biz park?"
i miss french classes with you two.

i just wish to say

• everything i do for ANYBODY ANYONE, is really from the bottom of my heart
• i feel very lucky to know every single one of you as friends
• i know how bitchy i can get at any one point i want my views to be seen as well
• i have never meant to make anyone angry or even hurt anyone
• im sorry for everything that ever happened

i guess im just a dirt on ur shirt that you wished you can wipe washed off but cant..right?
im sorry.
dustinanny:)