Have you ever got so desperate for someone's trust?

I have always trusted people 100% at the beginning, and its up to one to level the trust
But there was these few times, the trust came upon to 50-60% and when they ask me to trust them because they knew when the trust is gone,
nothing will be the same again.
I believed , I trusted .
But all happened that brought me tears, sadness but there was happiness too.
Its not their fault, I just happen to believe and trust too much, I shouldnt have been so gullible to tell everything about myself and believe every single word one person's saying with regards to being the true friend I see & the one being there.
Its all my fault for getting too comfortable.

Why the ignorance.

{all 3 belongs to 1 situation}
I was talking to GeokLeng ytd, and I rmbed how she didnt trust me at the start,
I rmbed how Demi and Delia trusted then not then trusted again,
all because the truth I said sounded ridiculous till they finally see & hear the truth themselves.

Have you ever felt so lost

Have you ever thought if the truth should be told
Have you ever thought if the truth is being told

Have you wanted to expose your friend's plot against you
and lose either the plotter/liar's or the trustee's friendship

Have you ever need to choose between a 10 years & a 2 mths friendship
Have you ever feel this torment in you for the longest time ever

Treasuring both, but one has to be lost.

Have you ever try pretending to be okay and still hope for a chance
Have you ever try giving one chance to hear everything out


Jody asked me why Im very sensitive when he says or people says goodbye to me.
its because, Im afraid I wont get to be as close , to be able to say what I wish to say to someone again.


* I kept every single goodnightsmsgs cos I know I wont have them ever again.