(: Both of us have been unwell, thankfully we are both recovering.
Pretty much, had some rest this weekend and
Had dinner with Mom & Bf at Chompchomp [:
Over the months, I have learnt something about myself.
For the past 4 years about my real self:
- That's me, the one who is always ever so confused, accident prone, the one that is never good enough, been through so much but yet still trying the hardest of my might to be happy. Not till I met him, who broke me down, caress me, telling me Im going to be there, listening, loving and caring. It was the day on, I smile to the world with a true heart of my own.
- I admit that behind most 0f:"I am fine, okay or alright" was a mind of mine stucked with much confusion trying to figure a way out to feel better. I shall also say that I was afraid that if I told you whats' wrong, I dont know if you will really be listening at all.
- In conclusion, I'm just bitchy enough, deal with it. Because whatever I do or say, and whoever I am going to be.Take it or Leave it cos nobody said that I had to be angelic or devilish like you.
- And its all because Im not going to spend my life chasing people ( you know who u are), You wanna leave my life? Go ahead. Cause Im so FUCKING tired and done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in our friendship. Nothing lasts and people DO change, get it into that damn head, I have learnt that love is sweet yet hard & life is exciting yet strange.
&I realised that nobody no matter how long it has been or
how bad or mean one is to treat the other,
there will always be one person in this world
who will reply to my every "I love you" with
"I love you too"
In this world, only a few people can make me smile.
A real smile that no one has seen it in a while.
The way he laughs&sleeps totally
slap a smile onto my face.
The way he talks&dances sends
butterflies to my tummy
and yes its true.
Everything about him makes me really happy.
ah. fuck the damn backache.
otherwise; love.
P.s. Dearest friends
Sometimes you need to breakdown.
Just yell as loud at everyone, cry until you fall,
breakdown till the very moment its hard to breathe.
Then in a hope of least to feel better, else at least
I or others know that you are not okay, and I will be there.
inspired by http://365thoughts.tumblr.com