and flashbacks of memories came to me.
Yet it stopped at 02january2010.
Scary somehow, I woke up crying and fucked up body in pain.
Tried to be comforted but got dejected, worst.
The feeling is just too overwhelming though it was just then.
I gotten over it but I just feel sometimes guilty/ irritated.
I in a very happy yaya nua life now,
filled with laughter&smiles everyday.
Yet at times like this when Im awake, alone..
I drag myself back to that particular day 02Jan which leads to 31stJan.
May I ask that if you once ever declare you had the 'best' with someone, you cant have another that overrides right? ( e.g. the best memories, the best time of my life etc.)
I mean of cos its able to be override but how will the future person or party feels? I will start asking myself when he or she claims its the best, was it better than the previous 'best' they had? or was it to make the organizer or creator happy?How was it better? May I know, how you define your 'best'?
after the past 'best' remains then, may I ask, did you ever recall it and wish it happens once again? would you one day use angered words or the flaws of the person to cover up that wasn't the real best but this is, just because it was the past?
I guess Im a very sensitive person. hurhur like gfs always say :"too sensitive, sometimes its better to pretend you dont know anything or act stupid in front of the guys." tsk.
Thisislove!
This is what u get from me when Im blogging out of nowhere from 3 am to now,8am and I hope I can fall asleep sooooon. Im afraid of falling back to the bad dream of her hurling at me, me forgetting him and, having the pain of my ankle and wrists to irritate me further. Falling back into bad dreams is what my mind is so gooooood at.
Thisislovelove.
anyway thank"you" for replying my sms at an unearthly hour of 4 + in the morning although it was like kangkanghao you just reach home, my text buddy indeed.
-- for now im withdrawing, closing doors, not yet but soon.
a man with a very beautiful heart.
whom ilovesomuch.
