overwhelmed with 18 years of pain
messed up
broken
tears keep coming
agony
anger
unhappiness
pain
sad to say, I have always never liked my father's side except my smaller aunt's children.
I have never wanted to talk about this right over here because its like my personal matter.
Seriously, they are like higher income side, prolly the richest among. However, to my disappointment, proud egoistic and portrays the ugly side of them.
I was told my big aunt told my mom (while carrying me in her arms)
: "You must have not been a good, otherwise he will not look for another man."
and others stuff as well. I got to know about it, seriously I am the one despising your family.
The level of insecurity was luckily saved by my love.
He might be there beside me sleeping, while I tear and cry it out.
Many will think he doesnt care, he's not being there.
Its because he spend all his time and efforts on me,
Tired out, he sleeps the moment he hit the sack.
Even when I was hungry, he wanted to go out have supper
even when he is THIS DEADTIRED.
what made me feel GUILTYmax-ed was I was stuck in
my game of LittleBigPlanet,
he was about to sleep.. and I made him get over that level
for me so I wont be stuck anymore.
*shakes head*
TSK anyway I LOVE MY BABY MAX [:
He brought me for Ichi-ban today, though broke like crazy cos I was @(^&! mood, got craves for sushi and it really feels damn goooood, he orders those that I like. We have so much in similarities and little in differences but love is all about embracing all we have together. Good or bad, I stay by you.
Please dont rain tomorrow*cross fingers*
so that I did get to go Universal Studios with Mummy, Baby & Uncle(:
and I was anticipating for Kushinbo, was sigh changed to Sakura, aint that bad too!they are having Seafood fair, wells at least BB gets to eat his scallop, I hope!
I want him to enjoy his every single meal with me and also with Mummy.
<3To the man, who never fails to brighten and make me happppy and feel so loved everyday!I always love you and I know for the rest of my life, I can depend on you.Yes, I always will listen and be your love.
XOXO
so I leave you with this tonight:
He might be there beside me sleeping, while I tear and cry it out.
Many will think he doesnt care, he's not being there.
Its because he spend all his time and efforts on me,
Tired out, he sleeps the moment he hit the sack.
Even when I was hungry, he wanted to go out have supper
even when he is THIS DEADTIRED.
what made me feel GUILTYmax-ed was I was stuck in
my game of LittleBigPlanet,
he was about to sleep.. and I made him get over that level
for me so I wont be stuck anymore.
*shakes head*
TSK anyway I LOVE MY BABY MAX [:
He brought me for Ichi-ban today, though broke like crazy cos I was @(^&! mood, got craves for sushi and it really feels damn goooood, he orders those that I like. We have so much in similarities and little in differences but love is all about embracing all we have together. Good or bad, I stay by you.
Please dont rain tomorrow*cross fingers*
so that I did get to go Universal Studios with Mummy, Baby & Uncle(:
and I was anticipating for Kushinbo, was sigh changed to Sakura, aint that bad too!they are having Seafood fair, wells at least BB gets to eat his scallop, I hope!
I want him to enjoy his every single meal with me and also with Mummy.
<3To the man, who never fails to brighten and make me happppy and feel so loved everyday!I always love you and I know for the rest of my life, I can depend on you.Yes, I always will listen and be your love.
XOXO
so I leave you with this tonight:
