"Hope you will be well treated up there." will be the last thing I ever want to hear from anyone.
Its been hard, its been hard trying to tell anyone about anything and everything that has been happening.
I dont like to be questioned, I dont like to be asked WHY WHY WHY, I DONT KNOW WHY.
IT JUST HAPPENS, WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT IT? AM I FEELING ANY BETTER THAT YOU ASKED AND MAKE ME WONDER EVEN MORE? I DONT LIKE TO TELL THINGS OUT, I DONT LIKE ALOT PEOPLE KNOWING ABOUT MY ISSUES, WHEN I SAY IM NOT ALRIGHT BUT I AM UNABLE TO GIVE YOU AN ANSWER, I REALLY AM UNABLE TO...
I maybe enjoying partying and doing stuff I really like, but these are all the time I am left...
I would really want to be healthy and do well so that I can enjoy myself even more
and be together with my love ones especially my babyboy.
He means the world to me, if he is gone, there will not be a me, cos my life represents the amount of tender loving care he has put in, helping me put back pieces of my crashed world making it so beautiful, colourful and perfect now.
Everytime I type such a post, tears come rolling and I know 'you' reading will wonder what am I talking about? Is everything alright? Its hard for one to understand what I am going through and I am dragging boyfriend down with me to suffer, which I know I got to stop soon. I have to.