Situations are getting very complicated

There are so much for me to do and let people know

I am not sure what to say 

everytime they asked, what are  you thinking ?

why are you in daze? are you okay?

I dont want them to feel sorry for me.

I want them to know that Im trying very hard to be okay.

I dont want to keep from them but yet by doing so

Im gonna hurt them real bad one day.

PS: I miss my boy very very much <3 Merry Xmas everyone.