I'm in a constant state of madness. I just need to know that two people can live together and be happy together forever. I remember what you wore on the first day,you came into my life. Where we met, what we did, eat and how the most beautiful day ended.
You dont wish to listen whats on my mind, you thought it would be the same old story just like the those few times. I want to make you laugh like how I used to, and be happy with you, I miss late night calls speaking for hours, I miss you webcaming me, and I miss the "no lies or hiding anything between us", when your full attention is on me.
Stop complaining you'd say, alright, this will be the last time, I promise. I will never mention it again.

There are things about me that I can't and now will never explain to anyone.
I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after.
I can't tell because they’ll presume.
I will just forget about all this, and move on.
Why hang on to the past when it wont happen again.I got enough of sleepless nights, when I wake up in the middle of the night watching your innocence and knowing the love we once had and always have.

You are the man of my dreams, the one I been waiting for, your heart so beautiful words barely do any justice, the guy I want in my arms more than anything, the guy I want to fall asleep beside every night, stay up all night ( like how we used to at the park or even outside macdonalds) and talk about everything and anything. Your hands are the ones I wanna hold, whose kisses I constantly crave, the man I want to slow dance with, the lover I want to kiss goodnight, the asshole who laughs and tickles (plus pinching) me all time, the only girl that you sing to sleep every night and the man I will miss every single day no matter how far or how near. The man, you , Aloysius Teoh I am always going to love all my life.

I love him, plainly and simply. He's everything I think about when I go to sleep and he's everything I think about when I awake the next monring. When Im dreaming a bad dream, waking up scared, he would be there holding me, telling me:" Its okay, Im here and I will protect you," He makes me complete, my shinging light in my otherwise darkened world.