time to be serious about my life.
like serious, serious.


Am 21 years old, going on to 22 this year.
like what B say, we dont have alot of slack times, like we have now.
especially when he is 24 this year.


M  heading back to my studies soon enough,
plans on expanding events will also be in mind.
Might look for a full time job as well to gain more contacts/ exp.


had a sort of bad week , because I had this excruciating pain at my waist suddenly, while cooking and couldnt walk, depended on love to bring me back to the room and lie down. Numbness in both my hands and legs and half down pain, walking became a burden. Am glad, how two days later, I could walk and manage to roll here and there over the bed to do a lil of this and that, toilet but a bobian have to bear the pain and go. And I could see who cared and all, thankful for them! those who gave excuses like busy, exams blahblahblah, please, I been thru' giving excuses like that too. 


Looking back, I might or already have lost/ neglect a few close friends of mine,
but like what love told me, if they dont understand, they are not worth the stay.
I tried for those I really thought would be lifetime gfs like promised.. this is one friendship that I have no reasons why it ended up like this.


Upon losing, I also gain new and maintain old friendships whom I never thought would be close with. Friends like Nancy and Hai Ping, have let me know that the years apart, not contacting did not distance the friendship we ever had. Nancy is a girl from Vietnam whom I met in Internship and so was Hai Ping, they are people who did not judge me, who are people after 2 years, still hug and hold hands and shop and laugh and talk about everything.
Jonard and Samuel may be my staffs, but also my brothers that I can depend on and trust them whenever I needed them. :) hugs*
These are real friends who never expect anything from you, and yet love you for who you are and these people I will treasure.


She had her exams, it ended yesterday on 5/5. I knew, but I dont know why I didnt wish her good luck for her papers as much as I wanted to , and be happy and meet her up with her exams ended. Maybe things have changed I dont know , but I hope it is for the better. I want her to know that I m always here for her, and hope she is happy with whatever she is doing now. I love her and she will always be my no. 1 gf, thats 4ever remember? We used to hang out every wed thurs fri sat or almost everyday, till my mom thought we were lesbians..  I just want to say how thankful I am for her and I know I have not been the best gf or best friend ever, but I care and love you always.