Latenights,morespendings( i cabbed everyday eh.omg.)

I dont wish to hide my feelings
but Im glad Im still the orginal me, even when its hidden.

tell me what to say, so that you wouldnt leave me

had lunch with Jo, talked a little & cabbed over to ben's place. vivo-ed,burgerking-ed ( omg been years since i ate it),movie-ed
my girls should know what im into now.

cant I just live in both my virtual world and have a normal world?
which I had for exactly 1 month and 1 day
and I was REALLY very very happy and really treasured it alot.

that girl who made it thru her previous breakup within 3 weeks.
that girl who made it thru all the setbacks faced (esp overseas)
that girl who never fails to smile at every moment when it happened
the girl who really trust-ed and believ-ed in you
that girl that made it thru with all the sweetalkings,encouragement & all.
the girl who is still sitting waiting starting at her cell, for ur name to appear.
( just want to be happy for one more time, thats all i ask
& there is only one person to make it happen)

the whole entire week, I kept asking myself the same questions.
the girlfriends kept asking the same questions.

I know the ANSWER, I guess I know.
its just at times I really have this little hope in there and
didnt wish to diminished it at all.

The world is catching up to me, yet Im running away.
I couldnt make a move, as there are much to make me stay.
money problems is an issue, piling up and all.
i aint no rich girl
i aint no ms.know it all
i just want to be able to give & protect people I care about.
it hurts.