I am unhappy. I am but I cant say why I am.
not that I cant, not that I wont, its just I dont know how to put them into words.
Many knows when I'm like this #*@^R$#! unhappy I will turn to sushi & sashimi.
Regardless of how poor and unhappy I am, I will feel alot alot better.

Been reading on stuff, and thinking abit.
and realise there are some things that I do not want
or to let it happen but when it does I just let it be.

At times I rmb that moment that touch landed on my cheek,
I felt so insecure, lost and unhappy. my heart felt very sourish( got such word not)
I admit after that happened, the homely feeling just changed.
Mind has thoughts of running away.


ilovemybfmuchmuch.

its 9:o5am.
feeling all good and up, with my glass of ice water.
oh I had a glass of minute maid, pulpy orange just before!
cleared the dishes in the room, soon packed the room.
wash my hamsters cage and bathe them *stink hammies*


woke up to a loving hug and kiss from my sweetheart,
and he cooked breakfast for me before he head over to school.
I heart this silly boy of mine.


batam<3 was awesome esp at novotelbatam! rooms were renovated, nice staff, good taxi rates with driver! yes the room is huge and got bubbled in the bathtub for abt 1hr plus. but came home with a very bad cough and flu + fever that lasted till now :( , right ear got deaf cant hear much and head is still painful :( sigh, hate making baby worry plus he was sick yesterday, I wish  I was much more understanding towards him :( but like he said im his pampered bitch(: love you sweetheart.


(: i will be back with photos in a while. im going clean the roooom first. 

I see no point in blogging when the person I would like to read mine is... nvm.

and I got this feeling that he misses her somehow, even for that little bit.

I guess its not wrong to feel some sort jealous of what , cos I am someone closer to him.

I wont understand anyway, and all i know its no longer the same. It just affects me a little more.

Some thinks when I talk , they thought I was pessimistic, but I wasnt.

I was telling the truth that I can see through the future and say what is predicted.

Most of the times, after I said, it would be alright because things change once revealed but they dont believe me. I lost that feeling, and kinda miss it. haha.

the feeling of being love and sweet all day long. 

my dear, do you remember when you ask me to watch this show?

do you remember how much more in love we are ?

do you remember the times when everything was pure and simple?

do you remember the times when I don have any bad memories with you?

do you remember how you always to read my blog daily?

do you remember how you like to decipher my fb status and question me?

just because we are together 24/7 doesnt mean its all the same you know.

Noah: Would you just stay with me?

Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we’re already fightin’

Noah: Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.

Allie: So what?

Noah: So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.

Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.

Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?

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She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there. Before the day that comes, when she longer can be in your arms, holding you,loving you but only lingers in your memories once in awhile.


her head hurts a million.

Batamlove

(: thefleaoveratsupperclubisOVER.
Somehow relieve and happy + some mixed feelings. Got to know this really nice girl , Jade who has been really helping me a whole lot the past month(: Michie twinnie is finally back from UK! After 6 months plus! And there she experienced her first flea event!

(: am over at Batam now with the superubercuteloving boyfriend!
Enjoying pizzas with greentea while soaking in the bathtub was awesome!

Had another nice talk with bb about our plans and stuff that has been happening. (: it's really nice to have him cose up , to cuddle with!

It was a last minute kinda and it's like super(: and I saw my perfume that is no longer available in Singapore , tempted to buy though and this Winniepooh knitted luaggage. Trying not to spend at all! Which I think I'm succeeding!

I'm back to laogong's arms! Seeyouwhenimback!

i love the walks we always had.
just like those from the Multistorey carpark to Blk 530
from blk 530 to GreenRidge Shopping Centre
we have it daily, but it takes a moment to actually think about it&smile.
most people/ couple will have their walks in quietness, holding hands
or just talk about random daily rantings and stuff.
but its is just so different between us.


just 5 months.
these walks have brought us thru 
the happiest smiles to the worst turn offs ever.
at times, we do the cheesiest stuff,
 tease at the most grouchy moments,
and feel super uber good about it.
Sadistic at times we say, but how blissed we are in the word love.
the pokings, tickling, chasing, pulling and laughing at each other,
are the memories and time where no one else is involved but us,
at a time of wee mornings, after a game 
over at some damn moneyscammingmachines.
we will look from below, counting 9 floors up,
and see if his dad is asleep,
but sadly, no he got to see my bags of toys, towels and stuff.


know what was my best memory ever? one of the walks.
it was when we were crossing the road, i tug my hands in his
and stop for awhile, giving him a hug.
Then we make out, while walking to the block, till it got ticklish
because we cant see the road infront and he was giggling, so am i.
I then said "I love you", his so beautiful replies "Iloveyoutoo"
always comes with a kiss on either the forehead, nose or lips,
and when I am in luck, I get sometimes all three.

We watched PrinceofPersia days back,

and there was this part where they talked about

how strangers turn into lovers without the need to knowing each other.

I then turned to him and

said :" I rmb you telling me that dating someone you dont really know is really sexy."

He smiled.

We hardly knew every detail of each other,
yet we got together, we fell in love, 
we learn about each other through the months.
and got deeper in love, headoverheels over each other all day.
from Butterfact to Powerhouse, from Keppel Bay to Henderson Waves.
The one for me is my one&only strangerturnedlover him.


nownow, back to the arms of my love.
[picturesoon]
:D


ps: i just got scolded by him IN HIS SLEEP the 5th time today, when he was the one who asked me to wake him up by 2 pm. argh frustrating. still my lovely SLEEPINGOD.