(: thankyoubaby.

socute!

Mr.TOFU MAN.

Thank you baby!

still very much in love.

I woke up,
thinking where am I , what am I to do today.
Saw the love, sleeping snoring away with a fever.
Please let him get well soon.

For the very first time, I felt lost.
I dont feel myself
I dont feel my heart
Everything seems like passing and floating by me.

This is where I speak endlessly without being judge.

Needing somewhere to collect my thoughts.

Those floating things that have inhabited my mind.

You know sometimes when you wake up in the morning and it's a new day,

and you felt like yesterday was a bad dream, or rather you wish it was.

We always think about what has happened and we get so absorbed

that we forget to live for what is now and what is to come.

B was so sweet telling me to just believe in him and dive in him and not think too much.
I am trying, and it sucks.

R/S can be so volatile at times

One moment you will feel like you cant wait to marry this man who is the one

next you also wished you hadn't met him.

Ever heard of this before?Put a black dot on a piece of paper and ask others what they see,

everyone would surely say a black dot,
not that other parts of paper which is still clean.

it is just like how a flaw would always
 find a way to amplify itself,
and make us forget about all the other reasons
to pardon that small mistake.

Ask this question to yourself when you are in doubt.

Who is the first person you want to call/text when you wake up?

Who is the first person you want to contact / inform when sth big happens?
 ( even thought mine will sleep through cos he is sleeping god...)

it is easy to give up.
But why give up when there is sth much simpler
such as giving in and compromising?

At the above, I may have seem experienced regarding in a r/s , however no.
Both bf and me go through stupid quarrels and arguments day in day out.
ALL BECAUSE OF MY stupid pettiness and also HIS grouchiness & high level of irritation.

somehow its funny both of us always end up laughing at each other
cos we say stupid things when we get angry and do stupid stuff.
And all we need, we know is just ONE HUG, ONE KISS
and we lay back on the bed and sleep.

He always call me a bitch, I am his ITCHY-B, backwards for Bitchy.
Cos I will use my guailan-ess against him, but he dont bother to argue back la.
cos he will win, but he wants to irritate me abit before he actually give in to my nonsense.

So I guess, its all about give and take.
Recently, I been such an ass, I been ridiculous, I made stupid requests and do stupid stuff.
But though somehow it made him angry or whats' not, he gives in because he knows Im stressed over various stuff and trying to get things back on track, he understands he compromises.

He has been giving up alot of sleep for me, and I know I have to get well and do everything right ASAP.
Thank you <3 for being so sweet and all.

All the things you do, whether small or big,
make a very big difference in my life.
You make me feel like the most beautiful woman
in this world even when I’m not.
You are like my pillar of support;
I can fall back on you at any time.
You are always there with the warm hug when I need it the most.
You know how to bring a smile on my face. I love it when you sing for me.
You are more thoughtful about my comfort before yours.
You do not complain even when
I fall short of your expectations.
You have seen me at my worst
and you still love me.
You are that someone who makes happiness happen.

hamtarolove.

I heart these photos much(:

Always so patient and waking up at wheeee hours
for my sake.Yes even when he was also damn sleepy.
I guess , I am the LUCKIEST GIRL on earth.
Loveyouverymuch.

btw. Couples Retreat is such a good show(: so was Shutter Island.
If you are in a r/s or once in a r/s , this show is really meaningful and comical in its own way.
It was awesome how love could hug me and lie from the back and both of us enjoyed this movie,
like totally. It brings warmth and it makes us happy. It allows us to know that a couple especially married ones are hard to come by, through mutal understanding and love, you will get to understand each other more and all. The venue:St. Regis Bora Bora Resort
filmed was beautiful as well,I wish love and me can go there someday.



I know Im neglecting some gfs.
I know I been very very naughty girl.
sigh, I will do sth about it.
but I really love to travel can someone bring me.

unable to tolerate this feeling
overwhelmed with 18 years of pain

messed up

broken

tears keep coming

agony

anger

unhappiness

pain

sad to say, I have always never liked my father's side except my smaller aunt's children.

I have never wanted to talk about this right over here because its like my personal matter.

Seriously, they are like higher income side, prolly the richest among. However, to my disappointment, proud egoistic and portrays the ugly side of them. 

I was told my big aunt told my mom (while carrying me in her arms) 

: "You must have not been a good, otherwise he will not look for another man."

and others stuff as well. I got to know about it, seriously I am the one despising your family.

The level of insecurity was luckily saved by my love.
He might be there beside me sleeping, while I tear and cry it out.
Many will think he doesnt care, he's not being there.
Its because he spend all his time and efforts on me,
Tired out, he sleeps the moment he hit the sack.
Even when I was hungry, he wanted to go out have supper
even when he is THIS DEADTIRED.
what made me feel GUILTYmax-ed was I was stuck in
my game of  LittleBigPlanet,
he was about to sleep.. and I made him get over that level
for me so I wont be stuck anymore.
*shakes head*

TSK anyway I LOVE MY BABY MAX [:
He brought me for Ichi-ban today, though broke like crazy cos I was @(^&! mood, got craves for sushi and it really feels damn goooood, he orders those that I like. We have so much in similarities and little in differences but love is all about embracing all we have together. Good or bad, I stay by you.
Please dont rain tomorrow*cross fingers*
so that I did get to go Universal Studios with Mummy, Baby & Uncle(:
and I was anticipating for Kushinbo, was sigh changed to Sakura, aint that bad too!they are having Seafood fair, wells at least BB gets to eat his scallop, I hope!
I want him to enjoy his every single meal with me and also with Mummy.
<3To the man, who never fails to brighten and make me happppy and feel so loved everyday!I always love you and I know for the rest of my life, I can depend on you.Yes, I always will listen and be your love.
XOXO





so I leave you with this tonight:

Don't question me when my feelings seem to be like a roller coaster ride for now.
its not really that ROLLER COASTER just a mild one probably.


Seriously,
My dearest boyfriend has done way too much and always willing to sacrifice, especially his sleep(which he treasures and treat it like god) alot. Imagine a man who used to sleep at least 10 hrs a day, sacrificing for his love to 4-5 hours also will make himself wake up so that the girlfriend wont be upset. Giving me everything he could, just to satisfy me, making me happy and always being so forgiving towards everything I do wrong. 

What a lousy gf, I have been: LAZY, DEMANDING and BITCHY( he loves it, trust me)
I should stop putting boundaries in my heart in fear of any hurt or pain that will occur. I should just embrace everything together hand in hand with my love one, my soulmate.


He gave me all of his love,time and everything, he is such a sweetheart.
At 3am one night, I didnt feel like sleeping ,urge for porridge which he offered to go get some for me.. but I chose to go with a glass of cold drink instead and he was actually ready to sleep, he got up and brought me to get some, HOW SWEET(: and everything little things he does, even when he makes me extremely angry pissed and irritated when he SLEEPS, they are all the best feelings.

he protects 
his patience
his never ending love
has determine my future.
my one&only,
my potential husband,
my love.

happy6monthsanniversary, laogong!

Thank you for everything you have done for me all these months,

always being there and never once reject me in whatever I want

unless Im sick or Im too broke to ever do those stuff.

At the end of the day, you will always get me stuff or food( ur fault)

to make me a happier person. 

Like most couples, we have our shortcomings and bicker here&there.

The best memo was that we got so angry with each other, that we burst out into smirks then laughter and then into our usual love hugs, and we are alright already!

and its because of our similar character and ways of doing things,

we get along so well, and everyday seems to be even more loving.

<3

thank you love,

may we have many more monthsary and years to come .

ai si ni le.

muack.