Im in love with a man, whom I am grateful for.

No matter what happens, I will always be here with and loving you.

through everything, and I mean it.

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There is this agony when
2 people you love most.

one bringing you down

one making you happy like anything because
you were brought down by the above

and both loves you much.

you want to make the one who brings you down happy too

and you dont want to let the one makes you happy down.

struggle much,

at the end of this whole thing,

both wants you to be happy because they said they love you.

one is forever yet always making you feel all the hurt in the world,

one says together forever and will never leave,
bringing smiles every single moment in your life.

who would you choose?

Both. I love both.

I feel like running away from the one who always bring me down

and live together forever with the one who brings me smiles.

I guess I rather be showered with care and all to know that I am loved

than being hurt by all your remarks because it makes things worst.

p.s: it used to be an issue about money, always for YEARS. using it to threaten, bring fear and all now you know its of no use because I am to earn my own, you offer me money to be back in your-once-very-busy-life. Its not that Im not willing to be in your life, besides my life was given by you, its just that I dont feel the way you want me to, no matter how hard you want me to now. And TRUST ME, I TRIED.

I am exhausted, I hadn't had any decent sleep these days.
Just the other day, I had deliberately went to bed early
hoping to heal the hostile relationship with Z monster,
much to my dismay, I spent the entire night dozing
and then snapping into wakefulness which,
was more tiring.

It gets me stronger everytime I wanna laidback and tear.


I'm cognizant of the difficulty.
and my ability to be in that position.
I admit it would be exceedingly awesome to be awfully rich,
but I didn't care about the money,
not in the same way as the suits did.


I wanted enough to live on, and to support occassional lavishing.
Sadly, life isn't that understandable and easy.


income taxes

phone bills - 3 lines.

credit card bills.

steady mixue steady.

used to this kinda feeling cos been paying my own bill since I got my first phone.

Taking a breather from work and life is essential.

I took 2 years of it, like wtf but yes I did.
It makes you think and reflect.
I did that, and like in the past,
I'm still working towards ''Happiness''.
Happy people thrive, they're more creative, productive.
earn more money, attract more friends, stay healthier and
even outlive their grumpier peers.



Of love and me, keeps me happy and get me going.

He is, so am I.

Would very much appreciate :)

It all remains there

In digression

I DO.

neverwanttoloseyouatall.

togetherforever:)

I'm in a constant state of madness. I just need to know that two people can live together and be happy together forever. I remember what you wore on the first day,you came into my life. Where we met, what we did, eat and how the most beautiful day ended.
You dont wish to listen whats on my mind, you thought it would be the same old story just like the those few times. I want to make you laugh like how I used to, and be happy with you, I miss late night calls speaking for hours, I miss you webcaming me, and I miss the "no lies or hiding anything between us", when your full attention is on me.
Stop complaining you'd say, alright, this will be the last time, I promise. I will never mention it again.

There are things about me that I can't and now will never explain to anyone.
I can’t tell what I think about things or what I’m after.
I can't tell because they’ll presume.
I will just forget about all this, and move on.
Why hang on to the past when it wont happen again.I got enough of sleepless nights, when I wake up in the middle of the night watching your innocence and knowing the love we once had and always have.

You are the man of my dreams, the one I been waiting for, your heart so beautiful words barely do any justice, the guy I want in my arms more than anything, the guy I want to fall asleep beside every night, stay up all night ( like how we used to at the park or even outside macdonalds) and talk about everything and anything. Your hands are the ones I wanna hold, whose kisses I constantly crave, the man I want to slow dance with, the lover I want to kiss goodnight, the asshole who laughs and tickles (plus pinching) me all time, the only girl that you sing to sleep every night and the man I will miss every single day no matter how far or how near. The man, you , Aloysius Teoh I am always going to love all my life.

I love him, plainly and simply. He's everything I think about when I go to sleep and he's everything I think about when I awake the next monring. When Im dreaming a bad dream, waking up scared, he would be there holding me, telling me:" Its okay, Im here and I will protect you," He makes me complete, my shinging light in my otherwise darkened world.

Life been just like this :)

lovely!

Baby's homecooked laksa with Beethyebuck :)

 Valentine's gift for baby :)

Powerhouse with Demi :)

Strawberries never fail to make me feel better.

 7" Pooh and Piglet accompany me everywhere:)

Bugis Duck Porridge with Large intestine :)

10pm Baby ride out just to satisfy crave!

 Random Camwhores while I am freee :)

Valentine's 2011 Present :) presenting 2 out of 3 presents!

Pooh, Roo and Piglet, rocking musical chair.

He plays it everynight before I sleep.

The 3 D Pieces he got for me , knowing that I like alot! :)

OHAYO! My Japanese Pooh-San from Osaka Disney Store.