18 months. 
Seems so great yet so  " insert a word"


not very long of being together, also not very short.
the quantity of time didnt matter, quality does.
as much as our r/s is filled with love :) 
I am still learning to be a better gf , a better half.
there are times when doubt arises,
there are times when I am happiest and wish time stopped then.


I'm still working towards ''Happiness''.
Happy people thrive, they're more creative, productive,
earn more money, attract more friends, stay healthier and
even outlive their grumpier peers.


It was him that gave me a possible light pathway to give love another chance.
It was him who made me the happiest and one of the luckiest girls out there.




I thank you for him.
Im thankful.






<3 aloysiusteoh today, always, forever.

if I die young, please bless him with someone who can and will care,love,accompany,appreciate him for the rest of his life.

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams

I can be whoever I want to be,

but I hated because people made used of me,

my parents split up, my best friend betrayed me,

 the kids in class called me fat ugly stupid and worthless. 

I'm concerned about things I cant control. 

I once hang onto painful memories because I'm afraid to forget.

I should stop taking things for granted, stop taking life for granted. 

I believed what comes around goes around , hoping for a better day, for someone who does not give up on me. I'm unlike the rest of the girls, I spent my days smiling and nights crying at times, I m the kinda girl would love to be loved and looks so damn strong but feels so fucking weak. But I am also the girl who picks myself up every time I fall.

I am sorry for constantly wanting to talk to you.

Im sorry when you took so damn long to reply, that I get sad.

Im sorry if I say things that might piss you off.

Im sorry if I always spoil your climaxes of joy.

Im sorry if I am annoying.

I am sorry  if you dont wanna talk to me as much as I want to.

I am sorry I think about you too much and too often.

I am sorry that I tell you about my pointless drama when you dont care at all.

Im sorry if I come off as clingy.
Im gonna stop it.

Im gonna end all this stupidity of mine.

thats life, and you gotta

Was having starbucks break with a close girlfriend just yesterday,

and the mood was a killer due to the weather and whats more its MONDAY.

Speaking about monday blues, sigh

We talk about more sensitive issues, like friendships and relationships.

There are alot of content in which we spoke of, are related closely to us.

People we would usually mention, and 

people we thought would never exist in our conversations.

It was interesting. And somewhat intriguing.

It’s amazing how people can change over a period of time.

The way they view things and themselves and the way they value friendships.

They have never thought that their actions will cause the effects how one would lead one’s life.

People have different wants in their life and 

They dont have to accommodate anyone but themselves.

I have treasure as much as I could.

I try to make an effort most of the time.

I may seem lazy or biased towards my bf.

but still you are in my heart,

thats what matters.

Do it for yourself, 

yes, whatever you do.

<3

As I heard, a couple of hearts were broken these days, and it is mostly associated when the future is being spoke about. I dont dare to speak about mine, just as yet. But I am also in planning and in thoughts of it.
at times, insecurity arrives and assurance is needed.

its so much clearer now.

whatever -ships they are, they will finally sink.

Is it wrong, to hide my excitement for anyone's presence?

I got this secret anticipation when my loves, said they are visiting me.

But do they know? NO. They Don't

Anyway Im already fortunate enough to have mycloseones,

whom always leave me random messages,

asking how am I , what am I doing, am I free.

though a short question, it actually let me know , they thought of me 

as the day goes by.

At times, I have my reasons for many things,

but it is not up to anyone, for me to say the reasons,

anyway to be straight is 

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU WANT TO KNOW THE FUCKING REASON

IF YOU ALREADY ASSUME A CONCLUSION OF YOUR OWN 

AND WHATEVER ANYONE SAYS WILL BE JUST EXCUSES.

AND ANOTHER THING IS FUCKING MIND YOUR MANNERS.

-- ANYWAY--

Jiejie just texted me from Indo, she received the shipment I sent to her.

:D She got my cards, the photos, and other small items I give her.

Glad, that she likes it and My god daughter receive alot of presents!

当他叫你一聲老婆


叫你一聲老婆，意味著你就是他的唯一…你是他最疼愛、最在乎、最關心，最想走到一起的那個人…

叫你一聲老婆，就不要去想自己是不是該矜持點，愛他就要告訴他，當他說愛你的時候，你也應該告訴他，你也很愛他…


叫你一聲老婆，就要信任他，有什麼想法就要告訴他，不管他支不支持，任何一個男孩都希望他的女孩依靠他…


叫你一聲老婆，就是他在外面遇到什麼好玩的、好看的、好吃的，他都會在心裡想，要是現在你也在他身邊，那該多好啊！

叫你一聲老婆，就是當他不能陪在你身邊的時候，你應該努力讓自己過得開心，照顧好自己，男孩也希望可以每天24 小時都見到你的笑臉，但是男孩有更多的責任，為了事業，為了你們的將來，他一直在努力…


叫你一聲老婆，就要相信兩個人的心是在一起的，空間的距離不會把兩顆相愛的心變得遙遠…

From my iPad to u :) je'taime

time to be serious about my life.
like serious, serious.


Am 21 years old, going on to 22 this year.
like what B say, we dont have alot of slack times, like we have now.
especially when he is 24 this year.


M  heading back to my studies soon enough,
plans on expanding events will also be in mind.
Might look for a full time job as well to gain more contacts/ exp.


had a sort of bad week , because I had this excruciating pain at my waist suddenly, while cooking and couldnt walk, depended on love to bring me back to the room and lie down. Numbness in both my hands and legs and half down pain, walking became a burden. Am glad, how two days later, I could walk and manage to roll here and there over the bed to do a lil of this and that, toilet but a bobian have to bear the pain and go. And I could see who cared and all, thankful for them! those who gave excuses like busy, exams blahblahblah, please, I been thru' giving excuses like that too. 


Looking back, I might or already have lost/ neglect a few close friends of mine,
but like what love told me, if they dont understand, they are not worth the stay.
I tried for those I really thought would be lifetime gfs like promised.. this is one friendship that I have no reasons why it ended up like this.


Upon losing, I also gain new and maintain old friendships whom I never thought would be close with. Friends like Nancy and Hai Ping, have let me know that the years apart, not contacting did not distance the friendship we ever had. Nancy is a girl from Vietnam whom I met in Internship and so was Hai Ping, they are people who did not judge me, who are people after 2 years, still hug and hold hands and shop and laugh and talk about everything.
Jonard and Samuel may be my staffs, but also my brothers that I can depend on and trust them whenever I needed them. :) hugs*
These are real friends who never expect anything from you, and yet love you for who you are and these people I will treasure.


She had her exams, it ended yesterday on 5/5. I knew, but I dont know why I didnt wish her good luck for her papers as much as I wanted to , and be happy and meet her up with her exams ended. Maybe things have changed I dont know , but I hope it is for the better. I want her to know that I m always here for her, and hope she is happy with whatever she is doing now. I love her and she will always be my no. 1 gf, thats 4ever remember? We used to hang out every wed thurs fri sat or almost everyday, till my mom thought we were lesbians..  I just want to say how thankful I am for her and I know I have not been the best gf or best friend ever, but I care and love you always.

Singaporeans favorite hobby is seriously COMPLAINING. Give in already still COMPLAIN.




Can I ask..


Are you really that UNHAPPY about your life in SINGAPORE? 


If YOU ARE COMPLAINING YOU GOT NOT ENOUGH MONEY AND BLAHBLAHBLAH ABOUT THE MONEY YOU HAVE OR HAD, have you thought who were the ones who help build ties and strengthen our  currency: S$ to be stronger, so travelling will be slightly affordable and cheaper for you?  If you have no money, why do I see thousands of families booking to travel overseas everytime at NATAS fair or spurlge their money to buy IT products from the IT SHOWS , when they already have what they need, but just want the latest version? SAVE LA! then got money buy house already.

Don't you ever feel proud being a Singaporean?

Don't you think that you SINGAPOREANS are already so much luckier than many other ppl?


Why always pay/argue/queue/ fight for NDP tickets to cheer and roar about the nation growing up, celebrating the nation birthday?


Why take things for granted now, that you are living in a much more comfortable state then people from the 1960s' and who were the main people planning and executing plans to bring out the future of then Singapura?


For example, when I left for New York in Dec and just 21 days away from home, I miss my own nation already, when I went for a holiday to Bangkok stuck in traffics, having dirty streets, seeing all the beggars pitifully begging there and having riots and all, DO YOU KNOW HOW BLESS I FEEL to be a SINGAPOREAN and how lucky I am to be STAYING HERE?




So here goes the complain about GST being 7% is high and the " WHERE IS THE MONEY, WHERE DID THE MONEY GO" reserves . Do you really want the country to be bankrupt then panic for the reserves, we been having? and Pay absurd GST in the future just to prevent your nation from bankruptcy.


I am not saying all good about PAP, yes there are flaws, no government are perfect. I know a group of friends who are very indeed supportive about the opposition and mentioned that track records are to be built and to be given chance etc.  Look at Singapore at its prime time now, any mistakes or error in these five years to come will be a serious affecting issue.


Speaking our housing price to be lower, I will be glad if the low price for housing we are getting are those fresh built and not bought from others. Because, with that it meant that the housing our parents bought at 300 over thousands to reduce to how much lower, then make a loss ?


This whole entire election thingy especially with the opposition seems so brainwashing like a MLM, like I know what you are upset with, I know this and I know that, join us! support us! we will help you solve your problem. PLEASE you sure?


Worst: Chase the foreigners away, we do not need them. Mentioned by one of the oppositions.


YOU SURE YOU DONT NEED FOREIGNERS?


Without foreign injections, where MBS LV PRADA CHANEL all come from? Have they created job opportunities for you as well? Just that their boss might be a foreigner but they are also hiring people like YOU. You think our country still can be the one of the top tourist attraction, without these foreigners investment in us too?


there is alot of jobs that alot of you pampered Singaporeans are unwilling to work as okay. 
Every job also so choosy, sales girl how many wants to do? telemarketing? clean toilet? construction working? 


Yes some foreigners do earn more than us, some does  lesser job than us but in one way or another you will need them, or else so stupid go and hire them for what. Are you saying your HR dpt of your company,hire blindly and splurging the money to pay for them?


 As long as the jobs dont pay you well, singaporeans sooner or later will QUIT unless one is old and cant find any other jobs, or to help your current financial state.
 As long as your jobs dont label you as associate, executive, officers or personnel , you wont want the job or rather even glance at the job scope.



I am not to say that I am supportive or who and whats not. Its just before criticising our current PAP leaders and government, I feel that one should not take things for granted and look back at how much we have grown and also how much they have done for us. Nobody is superhuman, no govt is perfect but aint you glad that you are in one that still cares and loves you and led by the man who brought our nation to independence?  I have nothing against        oppositions stepping in with their new policies, but for the 24 year old lady, I hope she can show some respect , and some gratitude.

more money
i need.


everything else , I've got.