On X'mas Eve and X'mas:)

bought the ring, i been finding:) , my work table((: with iphones/touch and all.


breakfast:Yakun ;finally its over (:

ilovemygf,maxmax.

love ma bro! He drank alcohol from the BOWL, me the cup as usual!

the night that we decided not to clubbbbb, we headed over to gardens
to meet Nic,Mick,CY,Nel and Kenneth:) for drinks and talk
( 11pm to 5am session NOT BAD, longer than clubbing hours)
Cy left without even sitting down for his soccer matches!

went to give out presents both at the orphanage and the party!

Happy 20th girlfriend:) one of my bestest ! omg muacks.

Thank you for the sweet surprise, its awesome ;D

caught the ALVIN & CHIPMUNKS with gf, super awesome!

Been meeting the gf up much more, and stuff are happening around me.
Not that I dont bother, or affected, I just dont show them.
anything pls talk to me personally. for now.
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I never really noticed
you never wanted to let
me into your world

I gave you my kisses
and though that may not
seem like much to you
don't forget that i
was waiting for the
right one, the right time
and my heart told me it was you

I can't go back can't
undo all the time I spent
with you.

Create a playlist at MixPod.com

Rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma,roma-ma
Gaga ooh lala
Want your bad romance

Did I drink that night, you may asked.
I promised I wouldnt drink and hurt myself anymore, right?
So yes just a sip or 2 with Steph & Bro and we hit the dance floor.
Bro was damn funny that night, trying to act all spasm then made me&gf laughed nonstop at the dancefloor, him getting high with all the guys making us laugh.

thank you 2 two:) for being such a sweet love in my life,

Stephie for the impromtu drink session into a club session
( so called bro to come down ..end up he ps us for electro)
cos I decided not o drink after all plus got GUESTLIST ,
why not! :) the queue was effing long tt night
and for the first and the last time, we just had fun dancing like crazy
& of cos meet new people :) saw quite a handful people tt night eh,
e/b* text me :"eh why u so crazy tonight?" i text back: "we will talk abt it :)"
then he text bk:"Im watching you girl" I text bk:"I know, enjoy urself can?"

& glad that I had fun and got really tired at the end of it, omg BADROMANCE is such an addictive song, we almost left till the song played we dance with BRO ( shiok only),
the guys were even saying :"you girls will never get out of here" tsktsk.

( besides asking me to bring makeup for u la)
love u gf, no matter what you know Im always here.
You know I wont go away, im just a central away from u:)
U know when we cry, we have each other be it mj/swim/drink/dance/bkk
:D 10 years and going on:)

we headed to serangoon macs with bro to find the 24hr outlet, is close for the night wth! we went to shop & save,bought food, eat outside MAC, shiok :)

Dearest NELLIE, just in case you think I DIDNT see this(above) :) hahaha
IM NOT OLD LOR, I said it was loud not TOO LOUD & I could withstand it.
:D and I do use punctuations, tstsk. and NELLIE u are tagged in the photo(below)

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met the GF:DEMI plus Steph
( who was unwilling to take photos due to NO sleep the night before, loook above for the photos where she was:] )
we headed for dinner before to starbucks to drink and chill :)
HAPPYHAPPY us, entertaining ourselves. then I realise I had so much devices
so decided to take pictures with them DAMN FUN :)
we headed over to Ion, which was almost CLOSE, with very little or rather no human except us:) so yea CAMWHORE:)

my gf so pretty aigns :) both of us have never thought that we will ever be this close ever since the past issues & incidents. :) lucky we clear them all.

then we went around in search of a toilet then teeheee for once! I could take such photos :) SO COOL RIGHTS! i like these two the most , totally :):)

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when i watched your videos on your fb, i understand the life you had : Simple yet happy


and iwishedsomehow when you appeared in my life, you will stay and not leave.
I do not know how to explain matters as its really beyond my ability to convince you anymore. I just wish you would see this, Im sorry if you really think I didnt trust you and also lied to you. I apologise cos I realise how much I appreciate your friendship and all, the times we talked. I shall just .. wait cos everytime I try, I get ignored.

Everytime I bring myself one step up to you, I end up 2 steps further from you.


(: anyway been having a great weel, photos upload soon:)

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :) VERY VERY PLEASED WITH MYSELF.

over the few days, ever since THURSDAY night, I never felt so loserish, ignored and all before and I became so determined that I dont deserve all this at all.
WHATS WITH ASSUMPTION ANYWAY!

:)THURSDAY had a blasting night with Pearl over at ClarkQuay, instead of the movie supposedly to watch. Awaiting her bf till around 2am lidat, so we head over to pump room for a short drink which I didnt drink what I ordered, she drank them all :) and it was like a mini angmo club quite cool, interesting :)


:)FRIDAY Met Stephanie:) for a facial over at our house here, then head over to Suntec to collect IPHONE:) then off to far east in search of my JACKET & her DRESS.
whee sweet la, i love this gf manymany , always have a lot of fun with her. After that met GeokLeng love! for dinner and a drink( i took snapple instead of alochol), she was kinda i guess surprised? LOL. then headed over to Gram's place :) for family.

:) SATURDAY met Mingze before heading over to meet Delia to collect my new canvas bag :) super pretty can! and then we went out for a movie and dinner:)
Along the way, met Steph gf:) awhile and going to meet her for powerhouse that night too:) then, saw Josephine dajie, after her work :) and a chat and all.
Then we decided to head over to STARBUCKS:) we like COFFEE:D , and oreocheesecake! wheeee. :) happy girl I am


about 10 plus, we took the train, meet his friends , meet steph & ron then realise steph knows his friend and the world seems to be so small. then reached powerhouse got more and more people joined us, met up with Cyrus, and gladly I had Cynthia to help me with locker and all, made a new friend, Weilin. Partayyed the night away..till PH suddenly have a short break in music * :( but we were about to go off too, so yep. Chilled at the road side before we head over to harbourfront mac to eat breakfast, waiting for Mingze then we go home:)



the rest is for me to know and for you to find out!


ok pictures up in a moment.

Have you ever got so desperate for someone's trust?

I have always trusted people 100% at the beginning, and its up to one to level the trust
But there was these few times, the trust came upon to 50-60% and when they ask me to trust them because they knew when the trust is gone,
nothing will be the same again.
I believed , I trusted .
But all happened that brought me tears, sadness but there was happiness too.
Its not their fault, I just happen to believe and trust too much, I shouldnt have been so gullible to tell everything about myself and believe every single word one person's saying with regards to being the true friend I see & the one being there.
Its all my fault for getting too comfortable.

Why the ignorance.

{all 3 belongs to 1 situation}
I was talking to GeokLeng ytd, and I rmbed how she didnt trust me at the start,
I rmbed how Demi and Delia trusted then not then trusted again,
all because the truth I said sounded ridiculous till they finally see & hear the truth themselves.

Have you ever felt so lost

Have you ever thought if the truth should be told
Have you ever thought if the truth is being told

Have you wanted to expose your friend's plot against you
and lose either the plotter/liar's or the trustee's friendship

Have you ever need to choose between a 10 years & a 2 mths friendship
Have you ever feel this torment in you for the longest time ever

Treasuring both, but one has to be lost.

Have you ever try pretending to be okay and still hope for a chance
Have you ever try giving one chance to hear everything out


Jody asked me why Im very sensitive when he says or people says goodbye to me.
its because, Im afraid I wont get to be as close , to be able to say what I wish to say to someone again.


* I kept every single goodnightsmsgs cos I know I wont have them ever again.

The simplest things really makes me HAPPY.

I appreciate how Ign trained back to meet up with me, to chat over a meal
I appreciate how gfs make time for me, msges me to check on me

Im thankful for boy-friends who are there to make me smile and encourage me
( even when they themselves are tired,sick/in camp & all)

I feel happiness when kissed by my lil god sis , Wei Ling
Im thankful after knowing from Jo, what Zack had said.
and I honoured to have Jo/Zack/Wei Ling with me for exactly the past 2 weeks:)
being there and always so accomodating.


I'm touched & motivated by what Tomi said to me before the movie
Im blessed with the nicest and the most understanding family & friends.

I was told that Im easily satisfied by Josephine, and yes and
me too Im really very lucky.

Had a really great one whole week off from work, home and all.
It was a good one that kinda end a lil ..
Anyway its time to go back to my real working world:)

So for the past 1.5month of leave, I been to a club, and met really nice new people:)
Went for another dangerous mission operation, went do some voluntary work over at the mountains & of course did more and more interviews :)

Been eating quite little but doing well still,
Really glad that I had my loves being there for me
when I was down esp during those times when I was pinned down , sick and all.

like since when u everever see me drink ? haha now you do!

ALOT ASKED me:
"eh you were like the anti-drinker,anti-smoker,hate loud music and all, why suddenly become like that?" Yes I do club, I do drink ( very bad one, all the gfs also laugh at me), smoke..hah twice only * sompa, only very very recently in fact
4th November, ButterFactory.

So I guess I got to clarify that it wasnt cos of anyone in particular,
I have always like dancing just that I have yet to try it at a club,

Secondly it was for my most recent reports that is due in Jan 09touching on the topic"nightlife of a younger generation"and I had to write on someone's life, why enter nightlife and all..end up I discovered more than I had and people I met became my friends.
& got affected on what to write.

for the whole 1.5 mths, out of handling kids, out of being the regular good girl that stays at home & work, out of being me..
I learnt alot and in fact grew up alot.
I am already matured enough for my age, but I just had to act stupid a lil at times.
I been doing so much, studying working and doing all the community stuff,and being attached and all for the past almost 6 - 7 years,
that I forg0t who I really am and really want.

I just a 20 year old, who wish to have fun for awhile, which was the reason why I practically enjoy myself for the past week, relax at a friend's place, got to know more people, went to the zoo, had pinic,
home baking sessions and all

(WITHIN A WEEK), and the people are really friendly, and their jokes are totally :), they provided a different kind of family feeling, something that never have I expected, I felt so comfortable & wish I can have it longer.

never had I imagined myself going over to west coast/clementi ,
to me it was super ulu.
It wasnt the best place,
but it has a quiet senerity & pace of life seems slower.
& it was a total different experience and all. They brought me to a level where I really wish I can be that normal girl with no huge responsibilities and worries.

Initially I had a motive, and I ended up with another.

I just want to say that I dont have to lie or pretend to be someone else, when I know one day when u know me well enough, u will be able to judge who I really am.

and I was glad when someone asked me to believe, I did or else I will never know the real you, and you were different from who everyone thought u were.

:)