Love(:

when the chicken rice craving sets in,

head over to the coffee shop near BPP

+ the waterchestnutdrink is damn nice

+ the icelemontea too

+ we settle our dimsum crave at 2am here too

+ the koka noodles / the pork porridge that uncle only opens from 230am to 12 nn.

This is the lastest additions, and the bigger ones(:

Gonna play again in weeks to come cos'now I 'm penniless

(: all these in about 50 bucks, not my money though, needa clear debts first.

Met up with my LOVES(:

Bf, Gf plus brother over at marina for dinner and toy catching!

Hopefully next week we can go discovery centre + prawning!

Still loving both my hamsters, cutiepies of my life.

so adorable right. RIGHT.

I woke up and realised how long I have not done drawings for him.

[Just a month but it seems longgggggggggg]

So here , dedicated to you, special one.

Happily or rather madly in L.O.V.E

Am so proud of being his girl.

Managing my temper & forgetfulness, tough indeed.

Time has proven all, just like how u use to say.

Always able to bring my smile across nevertheless.

Reminiscing our first few days together was nothing but

Obviously awesome.

He always keep to his promises, he always do. 

Whether within his means anot, he tries his best.

and when I always ask why do you do so much for me?

The answer is very simple and I know its true.

He said:"cos I love you, anything for that smile of yours"

The best ever !

(: just a simple catching toy game machine, he ain't obliged to get me every single soft toy I want, he could get something he like, or play for the jackpot or once he got it, he stops.

But he don't, he knows what I like, he tries his best to get them, and that the thrill between us for it is growing. Its like I have got not much of money to play, cos Im still in debts sadly, so B uses his spare cash to make me happy. Once I'm back to 100%, I gonna work to return debts :( A simple couple, who needs cheap/expensive thrills, ain't materialistic at all.

Most people know nothing about my condition,

well not even my gfs. Its like hard to explain and hard to be believed, that kinda.

And this boy here, has to take control of the situation and always be there, in fear of me forgetting again.Not that I don't want to spend private moments with some, its just you wont know what to do when something happens to me kinda and I cant afford to risk anything at all, not now. Its not hard to understand at all, I'm just not the usual me?  The one that protects and loves and cares for all she can, cos NOW I DON'T HAVE THE ABILITY TO. I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING WEAK LOUSY FORGETFUL USELESS and guess what? the only ones 5 of them,who constantly pour love and care, no matter how much I been neglecting them, being unselfish knowing that I cant do much for them now, unable to be there when they need me, I know who they are, and I'm grateful to them. Im sorry but anything can happen to me as long as he is not with me, I need him. 

Ain't that I don't want to get better.
Every time a cold wind blow, it fucks me up.
The ankle , that wrist ; urgh. RECOVER please.
its adding to my $%*#$& when I'm such a HAPPY girl.
annoying, how. and the brain is fried.


PROLLY ITS TIME TO BE MORE OPTIMISTIC.

It's my first time not watching you fry my favourite fried rice tonight, because I'm afraid I'm going to miss it badly. With every little grain and tender love u put into cooking, it not only fills my tummy , it also warms my heart. Thank you dear(: you gave up your every secs just for me. I love you love.





Aloy's famous fried rice(:



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happybdaygeok.
HappybdayRochBro
(:

Happy21stBdayGirlfriend! 

Glad that you had a blast last night and was very very high and happy.

Sorry for not able to be there for the dinner and the clubbing moments (:

Though I really wished I could be there. Tsk. 

Thanks for always being there for me over the time.

Caring and making time for me at times, even when u are busy .

Thank you for being there, for 3rd party (: 

Hereby wishing you all the best for your exams, 

much love and stay slim & pretty!

We had some fun at Universal Studio, Singapore.

The weather was #*%^@!! HOT when we entered and 

Drizzled when we left with huge lightnings.

It was like a short 5-6 hrs trip outta SINGAPORE but

still in there, having rides watching shows.

<3

Cy wasnt feeling well that day, thats why didnt take much photos!

Went over to Henderson Waves last night and 

had much relaxation n fun! 
though was not well with all the pain
and headaches plus heart pain:(

((((((: lovelovelove! Before that we went to 

play the catching toys machine over

at Marina Square, catching 22 toys with 

around $50 bucks was awesome.

Its an addiction,OMG, baby's good.

on the 12th in search of the s.crystals,

we went over to...

(: he is love.

it writes: aloy hearts mixue (:

Happiness is you.

Thank you for being so protective of me,

under the hot sun, walking in the rain,

putting your tiredness and blister pain aside,

to put me in front and care preciously.

Thank you for always coming down straight,

whenever I feel down or crying (emo) ,

just to be my by side and comfort me.

Thank you for bringing me down to 7/11 

at weird timings like 2 am or 4 am,

just for a walk or to buy something small.

Thank you for making me feel love.

Thank you for making me feel damn proud of us.

YOU AH! Although you always self praise

but yes, you are the best boyfriend! 

I simply love it when you said

your friends got this that here there

but you got me,

the best and they dont and will never.

brings a smile to me always.

<3

dontbejealous,youknowyouare. tsk [:

The girl who keeps forgetting.

1 day, I shall write a book of memories.

Have I forgotten?

The very first night we met at Takashimay, outside Chanel?

The very first meal you treated me a meal, to realise we both

dont eat taugay and hum with laksa?

On the very first of January that we got together?

We walked along, cabbed to RV's Boon Tong Kee,

had our second meal together, sat by the road side,

talking before I gotta cab home and you gotta head for Genting?

Have I really forgotten life, love and almost everyone?

Will I forget you ?

Every time I asked him :" Who are you , why am I here"

His lips go near and whisper to me, I feel safe

Yet the silence of me was there, when he called "dear"

Of his clenched eyes,save for the tearfulness,

He wonders, has she forgotten me?

He caressed me, with our breath twirling in the atmosphere,

He said in a small voice : " please dont forget me" ,

it brought me heart aches for reasons.

He put in efforts to repeat over and over again,

He never gave up even when he was so tired of it.

Im always afraid to sleep.

They dont understand the pain,
of trying so hard to remember and
to forget. They dont understand your pain
of reminders and heartaches.

Im scared, babyboy

In the nutshell:
Now even the most independent self is never a solitary creation;
there will always be someone to remind us that,
despite our most devious denials, our histories are entwined.

Emotional rides, running thoughts.

I been awake since 3am.
and flashbacks of memories came to me.
Yet it stopped at 02january2010.
Scary somehow, I woke up crying and fucked up body in pain.
Tried to be comforted but got dejected, worst.
The feeling is just too overwhelming though it was just then.
I gotten over it but I just feel sometimes guilty/ irritated.
I in a very happy yaya nua life now,
filled with laughter&smiles everyday.
Yet at times like this when Im awake, alone..
I drag myself back to that particular day 02Jan which leads to 31stJan.

--on another hand.
May I ask that if you once ever declare you had the 'best' with someone, you cant have another that overrides right? ( e.g. the best memories, the best time of my life etc.) 


I mean of cos its able to be override but how will the future person or party feels? I will start asking myself when he or she claims its the best, was it better than the previous 'best' they had? or was it to  make the organizer or creator happy?How was it better? May I know, how you define your 'best'?  


after the past 'best' remains then, may I ask, did you ever recall it and wish it happens once again? would you one day use angered words or the flaws of the person to cover up that wasn't the real best but this is, just because it was the past? 


I guess Im a very sensitive person. hurhur like gfs always say :"too sensitive, sometimes its better to pretend you dont know anything or act stupid in front of the guys." tsk.

Thisislove!

This is what u get from me when Im blogging out of nowhere from 3 am to now,8am and I hope I can fall asleep sooooon. Im afraid of falling back to the bad dream of her hurling at me, me forgetting him and, having the pain of my ankle and wrists to irritate me further. Falling back into bad dreams is what my mind is so gooooood at.

Thisislovelove.

anyway thank"you" for replying my sms at an unearthly hour of 4 + in the morning although it was like kangkanghao you just reach home, my text buddy indeed.


-- for now im withdrawing, closing doors, not yet but soon.

a man with a very beautiful heart.

whom ilovesomuch.

I <3 how you pat me to sleep
I <3 how you learn and play the piano canon in d song for me to fall asleep
I <3 how you give me a kiss on my forehead nosey & lips b4 I sleep
I <3 waking up in your arms and seeing you smile with your eyes shut whispering "good morning laopo"

230am:
Dimsum supper was awesome with koka noodles+pacific clams!


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(: he will just bring anything even 'sleepingod' who takes up alot of space,

just to bring me comfort and smiles.

just cos I was very sure and abit sad that I want the pooh bear on the left.

He went to change coins and tried his luck to get it for me.

He did it just for my smiles.
Yes love, Hamtaro DAMN HAPPY.
 damn proud of the cutest laogong, one can ever get.

 

only I get to display my guanlan-ness and irritating  moments

w/o getting a smack from him.

EastCoastPark-ed

Thevenuewefirsthadalongtalkfacetoface.

Awesome sky filled with stars today.

Got to enjoy the view with my sleeping god&bf (:

He asked me what's my dream wedding is.

Tsk, I answered it doesnt matter 
as long as Im marrying the man I love.

Then he asked, so is it me ? 

Haha, silly boy. You know the answer.

Dream = Him+Me 

Dream Wedding just have to be about You&Me,
and thats more than enough.

In fact, I always wanted a pastel colour-ed, princessy,very fairytale like kinda wedding plus a very ultimate traditional chinese wedding ceremony cos I think its AWESOME.Like I say it's want-ed or a want. The need is our happily ever after ((((((:

Still somehow it got to be the most memorable, 

outstanding and grandest wedding EVER.

(: Both of us have been unwell, thankfully we are both recovering. 

Pretty much, had some rest this weekend and

Had dinner with Mom & Bf at Chompchomp [: 

Over the months, I have learnt something about myself.

For the past 4 years about my real self:

1. That's me, the one who is always ever so confused, accident prone, the one that is never good enough, been through so much but yet still trying the hardest of my might to be happy. Not till I met him, who broke me down, caress me, telling me Im going to be there, listening, loving and caring. It was the day on, I smile to the world with a true heart of my own.
   
   
2. I admit that behind most 0f:"I am fine, okay or alright" was a mind of mine stucked with much confusion trying to figure a way out to feel better. I shall also say that I was afraid that  if I told you whats' wrong, I dont know if you will really be listening at all.
   
   
3. In conclusion, I'm just bitchy enough, deal with it. Because whatever I do or say, and whoever I am going to be.Take it or Leave it cos nobody said that I had to be angelic or devilish like you.
   
   
4. And its all because Im not going to spend my life chasing people ( you know who u are), You wanna leave my life? Go ahead. Cause Im so FUCKING tired and done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in our friendship. Nothing lasts and people DO change, get it into that damn head, I have learnt that love is sweet yet hard &  life is exciting yet strange.

&I realised that nobody no matter how long it has been or

how bad or mean one is to treat the other,

there will always be one person in this world

who will reply to my every "I love you" with

"I love you too"

In this world, only a few people can make me smile.

A real smile that no one has seen it in a while.

The way he laughs&sleeps totally 

slap a smile onto my face.

The way he talks&dances sends 

butterflies to my tummy 

and yes its true. 

Everything about him makes me really happy.

ah. fuck the damn backache.

otherwise; love.

P.s. Dearest friends

Sometimes you need to breakdown.

Just yell as loud at everyone, cry until you fall,

breakdown till the very moment its hard to breathe.

Then in a hope of least to feel better, else at least

I or others know that you are not okay, and I will be there.

inspired by http://365thoughts.tumblr.com

I kept thinking of how much I love talking to you.
How good you look when you smile, how much I love your laugh.
I daydream about you, replaying pieces of our conversations;
laughing at funny things you said or did. 
I have memorized your face and the way that you look at mine. 
I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine.
It is the possibility that get us going and not the guarantee.
I wonder what will happen, the next time we are together and 
even though neither of us know what the future holds, but I know one thing for sure.


"Aloysius Teoh,you are the best thing that has ever happened and is STILL happening to me"

The right guy wont get you to change.

He wont subtly pressure you.

He wont tell you who you gotta be,

He not going to tell you that you are wrong feeling like this.

The right guy will show you the path with patience.

He will actually sit through your stupid girly Disney movies with you because he just wants to be with you.

Yes, even if he snores away in the theatre.

The right guy will come along someday, you just gotta tough it out and wait for him.

But whatever you do, do not settle for the wrong guy because you deserve much more better.

Because I been through a wrong guy, I know how it really feels, I toughen-ed up , I waited & I found the right guy.

Dearest Love,

Please get well soon,

saddens me to see you in pain and feverish

and yet I cant do much like you always do.

:(

love you sweetheart,

On anniversary , I prepared for us Steamboat Lunch(:

with Japanese Fried Chicken and Fish Fillets(:

LOVE GRANDPA MANY(:

Being sick and all, we then learn how to appreciate FAMILY

Like Father Like Son :] 2 of the top 3 men in my life

Boyfriend and me (((((:

SPELL L-O-V-E!

LOVELOVELOVE